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ZadieBlue Posts: 3814
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I enjoy sleeping. I especially enjoy naps taken during the day with my dogs. Sometimes I'll use a prn to induce sleep. The problem is that there's a voice in my head telling me that I'm wasting my life, that I'm only young once, and that I'm taking my life for granted. If I weren't sleeping, I can't say I'd be doing anything spectacular. And yes I know I'm escaping reality -- I call it "le petit mort" meaning "the little death" jokingly to myself. I'm not "supposed" to behave this way, and if I got cancer tomorrow I'd be SO mad at myself. I don't know how to fix my life (God knows I've tried) so these naps happen maybe four times a week. My dog starts licking my face after a few hours to make sure I'm not dead (or because he misses me?). Dogs don't feel guilty for napping. I feel guilty. Zadie "I'm going to quit -- dried turkey." - Anonymous
"I forgot my mantra." - Annie Hall
"Knocked me on the head and sent me spinning
It was a blast I can't remember the last time
Stand between two poles and hold your arms up
I'll kick me over your head and stock down . . . " - Throwing Muses
Female, age 37
Bipolar I (mild)
Episodes / cycling happen most often during Spring and Fall allergy season; some dissociation possible during episodes.
GAD dx 12/11, PTSD traits, ED (in recovery)
Boarding school survivor :)
PSYCH:
Adderall 15 mg x 2 Prozac 40 mg Ativan 1.5 mg Geodon 120 mg Starting Lithium again
(Levothyroxine 50 mcg Atenolol 12.5 mg x 2 Clonidine 0.1 mg x 3).
ALLERGY / ASTHMA -- (Winter / Spring cocktail): Levocetirizine Alvesco HFA 160 mcg Ketotifen Fumarate PRN • Flovent ProAir PRN
Mercy Buckets to everyone!!!
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youngfilly Posts: 3067
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Why? Nanna naps are the best!!!! if you are tired then have a nap, there are many people out there who would love the opportunity to nap so enjoy it  If you are worried you are wasting your life then find some fun things to do during your awake hours. I say enjoy the naps without the guilt I am not a Dr and therefore are not able to provide medical advice, the opinions I express are mine and based on my experiences and should not be taken as anything other than my opinion.
You awake as if from a nightmare to find yourself standing in front of a blank wall, dazed with no idea as to how you got there.
You feel something in your hand. You look down to see you are holding paint brush, you are confused. Out of the corner of your eye you see a table, on that table is some paint. The colours make you feel happy and safe, you look to the other side, and there is another table with paint. The colours are dark and remind you of your nightmare, a chill runs down your spine at the thought of it.
You look back at the canvas and see something you missed before. Now you understand. you chose a colour, and begin to paint.
Above the wall was written,
Your life
*Youngfilly*
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uppitywoman Posts: 42369
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I have the opposite problem when it comes to sleep, but I know you have a lot of health issues and some of the unmedicated sleep may stem from that. Perhaps it is as you said the fact that you have nothing else going on, but I wouldn't feel guilty about that. I know that at this time you don't have anyone to pal around with. Maybe looking for volunteer work would get you out of the house and be a good way to meet people. There are all kinds of possibilities for that. Perhaps you are still depressed? With God, all things are possible
My blog:
http://uppitywomantwo.blogspot.com
Bipolar I
10mg Abilify--400mg Lamictal-90mg Cymbalta--25mg Ambien CR--200mg Topomax--30mg Temazapam--1mg Ativan as needed.
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pirateprincess421 Posts: 31179
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Zadie, I can sleep 10hrs on a normal day and turn around and take a 2 hour nap in the afternoon. I have no motivation and I waste my day too. I do have a pt job and that keeps me from isolating too much. I like my job, but at the same time I resent having to get up and miss my sleep. I know exactly how you feel. Princess Lainey
Lamictal 200mg
Risperdal 1.5mg
Trazadon 100mg
Klonapin 1mg
Lexapro 20mg
Wellbutrin 150mg
PS...I hate the snow
Please note that I am not a psychiatrist or psychologist. My opinions are personal only. This site is not intended to be a substitution for professional care, nor is anyone here qualified to make diagnoses. |
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ZadieBlue Posts: 3814
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Wow, yeah, let me rephrase: I'm guilty that I'm "tired" all the time. ~ Z "I'm going to quit -- dried turkey." - Anonymous
"I forgot my mantra." - Annie Hall
"Knocked me on the head and sent me spinning
It was a blast I can't remember the last time
Stand between two poles and hold your arms up
I'll kick me over your head and stock down . . . " - Throwing Muses
Female, age 37
Bipolar I (mild)
Episodes / cycling happen most often during Spring and Fall allergy season; some dissociation possible during episodes.
GAD dx 12/11, PTSD traits, ED (in recovery)
Boarding school survivor :)
PSYCH:
Adderall 15 mg x 2 Prozac 40 mg Ativan 1.5 mg Geodon 120 mg Starting Lithium again
(Levothyroxine 50 mcg Atenolol 12.5 mg x 2 Clonidine 0.1 mg x 3).
ALLERGY / ASTHMA -- (Winter / Spring cocktail): Levocetirizine Alvesco HFA 160 mcg Ketotifen Fumarate PRN • Flovent ProAir PRN
Mercy Buckets to everyone!!! |
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pirateprincess421 Posts: 31179
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Ok, I understand. Princess Lainey
Lamictal 200mg
Risperdal 1.5mg
Trazadon 100mg
Klonapin 1mg
Lexapro 20mg
Wellbutrin 150mg
PS...I hate the snow
Please note that I am not a psychiatrist or psychologist. My opinions are personal only. This site is not intended to be a substitution for professional care, nor is anyone here qualified to make diagnoses. |
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YorkieLove Posts: 7028
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Fatigue can be a lingering symptom of depression. I sleep a lot and lay around a lot too. Lisa
My advice is purely personal. I am not a Doctor and there is NO substitute for getting proper medical diagnosis and advice.
Bipolar II, Depressed Severe
Lamictal 400 mg
Seroquel 150 mg
Effexor 150 mg
Inderal 10 mg
Ambien 5 mg
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ZadieBlue Posts: 3814
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I'm on Dexedrine! And I've been on -- count 'em -- 40 other meds including all the antidepressants. I'm on Prozac, the gold standard for me. I have so much inner anxiety I get worn out so quickly. It won't go away!!! It paralyzes me so that the smallest of acts become a great deal. Feels hopeless. "I'm going to quit -- dried turkey." - Anonymous
"I forgot my mantra." - Annie Hall
"Knocked me on the head and sent me spinning
It was a blast I can't remember the last time
Stand between two poles and hold your arms up
I'll kick me over your head and stock down . . . " - Throwing Muses
Female, age 37
Bipolar I (mild)
Episodes / cycling happen most often during Spring and Fall allergy season; some dissociation possible during episodes.
GAD dx 12/11, PTSD traits, ED (in recovery)
Boarding school survivor :)
PSYCH:
Adderall 15 mg x 2 Prozac 40 mg Ativan 1.5 mg Geodon 120 mg Starting Lithium again
(Levothyroxine 50 mcg Atenolol 12.5 mg x 2 Clonidine 0.1 mg x 3).
ALLERGY / ASTHMA -- (Winter / Spring cocktail): Levocetirizine Alvesco HFA 160 mcg Ketotifen Fumarate PRN • Flovent ProAir PRN
Mercy Buckets to everyone!!! |
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Joy75 Posts: 15704
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While I was depressed, I slept my days away. I felt I was sleeping my life away also. I don't do much though and when I get bored, I go to sleep. Still do that. I take Dexedrine also, but I can take my afternoon dose and go right to sleep. It's weird. I think if you find something to do to occupy your time, you will not sleep so much. I know it's that you like to sleep. I feel guilty when I sleep too much also. Make yourself get up and do something so you don't feel guilty. Do you exercise? Pilates is great. Tones you and gives you something to do. Joy, 37 years old
Blog:
http://www.joylepley.blogspot.com
Email:
simplyjoyful75@gmail.com
Bipolar type 2 and ADD
300mg Wellbutrin
200mg Lamictal
40mg Viibryd
15mg Abilify
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centerseeker Posts: 2852
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Hopelessness is an awful feeling. I'm sorry that you are feeling paralyzed by even small acts. (((((Zadie))) (with an extra squeeze) It's pretty hard to resist napping with dogs though. Mine are always Doggie voodooing me into one. "No one can make you feel inferior without your consent." Eleanore Roosevelt
"If your compassion does not include yourself, it is incomplete." Jack Kornfield
"My goal in life is to be the person my dogs think I am" anonymous
bipolar/ADD
Depakote 1250 mg
Cymbalta 120 mg
propranolol 20 mg
geoden 160
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