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hooba  Posts: 509
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I can relate to a degree. I am on disability, stay at home 90% of the time, And have a wonderful wife, through no fault of her on,all mine, has a hard time trusting my judgement by myself. She goes to my pdoc appts. with me, which I know is best for me, but it's kind of belittling that I have to have someone over my shoulder at all times. Although I have brought all of this on myself, it still makes it hard to deal with.I too have voices in my head, while medicated they are muffled though, when you said maybe the people in your head wanted out, where you referring to voices? If so it sounds like you may need to call your pdoc. I hope all gets better for you, the mothering feeling gets old sometimes, it's better than not caring at all though. Keep your head up! You can show us the path to stability, it's on us to want to walk down the path and not veer off. |
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