one minute i feel like its best to die
then i think i can do anything and go be a freaking actor in india!!
btw i wonder cuz when i watch indian movies i feel like i really connect with the actors - but show biz can be brutal and it needs lots of self esteem and i have like 0 so everyone would tear me up.
i wonder if i should keep idolizing them because maybe in real life they would be mean to me.
this a clip from my favorite movie - and it has subtitles too so u can understand it also sumarizes the whole movie!
i used to think life was all set out and whatevers meant to happen will happen - but now im like man i cant do anythinga nd my lifes over and ill be on disability and on computer for rest of my life