Bipolar Support Group

It's just not fucking fair. Everyone else is managing their lives just fine. But I'm not. And I have to explain myself. And noone gets it.

You couldn't be more right angelique44!!! I returned to work today and was secretly sooooo jealous of my colleagues (ok, maybe I'm jumping to conclusions about their mental health) who seem so "normal" and able to cope with situations/issues in a way I can't.

Your not alone. There are many of us here that you can talk to anytime you need.

You know, I used to feel the same way. But things changed for me when I realized how special my mind is. I am a very unique individual with talents and creativity that no one I know has. And I am even disabled because of BP. Just think about it for a while. You will see how special you are. And your perception cannot be achieved with street drugs. Many people want it.

Before I was even diagnosed I was bitter towards everyone else, I knew I was different and would never fit in with the "normal" people. I tried to be like everyone else, but no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't fit. I started feeling like I was somehow broken. I learned to embrace it, and realized that everyone is meant to be different. That fact helps me.

I'm sure there are things you can do better, or more uniquely than most regular folk. It might help to focus on those,explore them further,and be thankful for them. They're part of the upside that makes you,You. I always wanted to write a book when i was normal,but was only after " developing" BP,that I not only wrote my first children's book but i illustrated it as well. And though I'm no JK Rowling,it sold decently enough out here( Manila,Philippines) to go into a second print run. An unexpected creative streak out of a mid-lifing personal trainer who could only dream of doing so till i turned bipolar. You may make a few exciting discoveries about yourself as well, if you focus on,and develop your strengths.

Sometimes our perceptions of others are skewed - and we THINK they have perfect/normal lives, and usually, they are just as confused as those of us who have been "diagnosed" one thing or another. I try (hard) not to play shrink on some of the normal people's behavior, then I smile because I really don't feel they are better off than I am...some are quite worse in fact!

I do understand your feelings though - when I was first diagnosed I said "Why me?" a lot....then I looked around at others who have it much worse. Plus, I wasn't complying with my doctor at first because I was too busy bitching about "why me?" that I didn't give meds (and my need to change bad habits) a chance to work....now I have and it has brought me more peace. Still a struggle, but one I have no choice but to handle.

Hang in there!

"We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars" - Oscar Wilde and JustJulie

I believe that acceptance is an important tool to managing BPD. I've began looking at it not as a disorder and more of an experience. It has allowed me to think outside the box. I do get frustrated about it sometimes, some times it's hard to except the fact that I am different. I believe education is also a very valuable tool also. I've come to the point where I am glad that I am "free to be me". I wish you the best of luck on finding inner peace.

Steve - I love your point of view. I think I'm going to try to look at BPD as more of an experience (albeit a really HARD one) rather than disorder, perhaps even an experience that gives me certain gifts. I think fighting against BPD has made it harder for me...perhaps acceptance will make it easier.

its alright, there are many people out there that have bipolar, thats the reason they come to MD junction for support, and to help one another, get through these tough times, and im always listening, drop me message in my inbox if you want