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Well I've been a way for a while. Through a lot. I will give you the highlights. SO threatened suicide, put him in hospital. Meds were at 0 on the blood test. Came out angry wouldn't talk to me. Got back on Lithium after about 2 weeks I got a call from him like everything was back to normal. We spoke for a while. I told him I loved him but could no longer endure the verbal abuse that he gives me when he is not well. That I would only speak to him if he would get into treatment. He called I didn't answer. He texted. I didn't respond. He emailed. No response with one exception which was to tell him I said I was not speaking to him unless he got treatment. Received 42 text messages which got increasingly more violent and in my opionion homocidal on top of terrible emails. Called police. Was told that I was over reacting. I had emails that said I and everyone around me will pay and that his death would bring chaos. How is that overreacting? Finally I got a CIT officer to his house. He had been drinking but they felt it was a relationship dispute so they left. Finally I called his P-Doc and he had him come in by threat of a foreced commitment if he did not. They added an antipsychotic. I told him if he contacts me again I am filing harrasment charges. I am having to take a tough love approach hoping that something good will come out of this either for him or me. I'm just so flippin tired. His dilusions were really bad. He started to bring other people into them that didn't exist. Stating that Rosie was going to get me. Who the hell is Rosie? What struck me as being scary was when he said when Cheryl becomes more self aware she will make you pay. I started to believe that he was creating new people to protect himself in his mind. I was terrified. He threatened me and my family. Amazingly despite all that I still found it hard to let go. What is my problem. I have seperated the illness from the man to a fault. In the end it has been now 2 weeks with no contact. We will see if it continues. |
I asked my ex that same question....and I found an article written by a therapist that I saved....and I read it whenever I feel sad or whenever I am questioning my decision....I sm sharing this with you.....hope it helps you too....if you cannot see it just google the Popcorn Parable written by Dr. Tracy. I am at peace because I have realized....I did all that "I" could to make this relationship work and there are questions that we simply must ACCEPT (acceptance is the 5th and last stage of grief) we will never quite get an answer to. Even teh BiPolar person themselves do not have an answer. Why give yourself the task of figuring it out....let go...(easier said than done)....but you will get there....
