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ZadieBlue Posts: 3787
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I once made a cross country trip and forgot my vial of Klonopin. I was on 4 mg per day. My pdoc was being a bastard and it took him 3 days to call in another rx. I had anxiety, the shakes, insomnia, was physically I'll and really felt like I was going to pass out or die. I feel horrible because my father was taking me to NYC for a show (The Producers), to bond, and to take me to the Belgian consulate to gain my dual citizenship. My dad was so happy and proud, and he was trying to make the trip amazing -- and all I could think about was withdrawals, sickness and death. He later told my mother I was "too quiet", making me seem unappreciative. I didn't know at the time, but I was dangerously ill -- Turns out I was at a very high risk for a seizure. My poor Dad ..... A few years later I'd use Klonopin for approx. 3 deliberate OD's. How I kept having it prescribed I don't know. Now I just can't have that particular med -- too triggering. One dr in the ER told me exactly how much I'd have to take to die (why do they say such things?!?). Now I take Librium 3x a day. Zadie "I'm going to quit -- dried turkey." - Anonymous
"I forgot my mantra." - Annie Hall
"Knocked me on the head and sent me spinning
It was a blast I can't remember the last time
Stand between two poles and hold your arms up
I'll kick me over your head and stock down . . . " - Throwing Muses
Female, age 37
Bipolar I (mild)
• Episodes / cycling happen most often during Spring and Fall allergy season; some dissociation possible during episodes.
• GAD dx 12/11, PTSD traits, ED (in recovery)
• Boarding school survivor :)
PSYCH:
Adderall 15 mg x 2 • Prozac 40 mg • Ativan 1.5 mg • Geodon 120 mg • Starting Lithium again
(Levothyroxine 50 mcg • Atenolol 12.5 mg x 2 • Clonidine 0.1 mg x 3).
ALLERGY / ASTHMA -- (Winter / Spring cocktail): Levocetirizine • Alvesco HFA 160 mcg • Ketotifen Fumarate PRN • Flovent • ProAir PRN
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