Bipolar Support Group

I have already mentioned on here what my health issue is so i won't bore you again. But i have now been told to do a mood diary for a month and visit a day hospital. So still no meds to help with the situation. Does anyone have any tips or tricks they use to try keep the suicidal thoughts as thoughts and not actions. I have now got to the point where i have taken an overdose and was admitted to hospital. I have since been released into the care of my sister but she can only stay with me for 2 weeks. Due to work and family commitments. But the moods take over so quick and strong now that i have no control over what is ahppening at that point. I have been very lucky to have such a brilliant neighbour who has rang ambulances and sat and listen to me ramble on and on. But i need peoples advice on how to calm the storm before the next wave of low depression comes over me. ALSO IS IT NORMAL TO HAVE NO REMORSE FOR SUICIDE. NOT EVEN FOR MY OWN KIDS. HELP.

I've had an awful yr. with wanting to harm myself/end it all. The worst time in many, many years...and the first time since I've been a mommy (my child is 5)...seems like every time I am depressed for about a yr. now, I get suicidal...the first thing I do? Let the person closest to me know...in my case, my mama...Second thing I do...call my doctor...when i'm in that mode of thinking, I think my daughter would be better off without me...but I snap out of it and realize she needs me and she loves me so much! She would be crushed if something happened to me. YOU matter to someone...!

Sorry you are having such a rough time right now. It is absolutely essential that you get on meds right away. I cannot stress this enough. No "mood diary" is going to change your suicidal thinking or impulses. You are severely clinically depressed and you need something strong enough to alter your brain chemistry levels and jolt you into thinking rationally. Last winter I left a deep depression untreated for 6 weeks and felt extremely suicidal for the last 2 weeks of that 6-week period before I finally went to and told my psychatrist. He put me on Effexor XR and a mood stabilizer and miraculously--immediately, within hours--I felt the shift in my brain from deep, dark, gloomy and completely negative to a new way of thinking. It was as if my brain was a house with no electricity and someone came in and switched on all the lights in all the rooms. Absolutely amazing and saved my life. Effexor doesn't work for everyone, but it worked wonders for me and it is very good (for many) at pulling them out of suicidal depression. Believe me when I say meds will make you feel much, much better and very quickly. Keep us posted and let us know how you're doing.

thankyou for your repiies i am now having to go to a day hospital for five hours a day to be evaluated. Still only on diazapan which only makes me sleepy. As i right this i feel i am currently in a breakdown and suicide is at the forfront. yet again.

I'm sorry you aren't well. I hope you feel better soon. Try to replace negative thoughts with positive ones. Ask someone to help you come up with positive ones which address the negative ones. Write them down and use them everytime you have a black thought enter your mind. Hang in there. This won't last forever.

Since you feel "As i right this i feel i am currently in a breakdown and suicide is at the forfront." and are unmedicated and have a history of a recent overdose, I feel it's important to refer you for immediate crisis intervention. I recommend you call your psychiatrist or talk to one of the counselors at your day treatment program or go to the nearest Emergency Room or call 911. The number to the National Suicide Hotline is 1-800-273-8255.

I think you need to tell the day hospital. It is not good to internalize. This is the illness talking. What is terrible about bipolar is that we think this a normal line of thinking and it is not. This is brain chemistry. It takes medication and intense therapy and a support system to overcome this. I have voluntarily gone to the hospital a couple of times just so I could feel safe and get on a med for the episode. I didn't have to take it long, but in crisis you must accept help. You must let your doc know. If it gets bad go to the er. Keeping someone with you 24/7 or staying at a friends house is the best thing to do right now until you get help.