Bipolar Support Group

I was just wondering, why do the holidays affect our mood so much? Anyone out there feeling depressed?

Perhaps some of it has to do is that many people seem more happy during the holidays while we don't.

In addition, perhaps we feel we don't deserve to feel joy, or receive gifts.

Possible....

I think with me I feel like it's some kind of competition. I hate competition. I'm the oldest of nine and Christmas just emphasizes my family's tendencies to show off. I want nothing to do with it but I still can't seem to "rise above"

There's also the pressure of making the perfect Christmas for my hubby and son. I don't know for the most part I enjoy the holiday's... Definitely feel like I have to push through though.

All those ghosts of Christmas past come rising up to haunt. I am much better this year with it all. There have been years where I did not want to put up a tree. Spent one Christmas in rehab and did not miss it a bit.

I'm horribly depressed. I don't even know what to do. And my apartment is fully decorated! I think they are affecting me because of all the other stuff that is going on this same time.

It is simply the stress and the triggers of family for me.

I usually have the Christmas spirit. I am usually pretty joyful but not this year. One of the reasons I am not as festive this year is because I can not take time off to spend with my daughter.I was not able to get time off to go shopping.It just does not feel like Christmas. ugh

My BF is thousands of miles away but I will see him after the holidays.

I have his Handel's Messiah on my iPod and I am decorating the tree listening to it and drinking California merlot my favourite red wine. Have to be careful on the ladder after the third glass...

The tree looks really good... we'll have to see what it really looks like tomorrow... I am getting quite into it... but Bedouin Soundclash has a better beat... ok, so I like to get a little crazy around the holidays. I am going outside _23 degrees with wind chill and doing the lights next.

Everybody is coming to my house for Christmas and I have to get ready whether I feel up to it or not. Tomorrow is the big cooking day, I start early in the morning.

My secret to get me in a festive mood is my favourite red wine and music, a couple if really good pieces of truffle, dark chcolate. The wonderful scent of fir, balsam fir... oh, sh... I forgot th wreath this year... oh well... I'll stick a huge red ribbon on the outside door... the cat likes it anyways.

Post edited by: Bluejade, at: 12/23/2008 13:01

The ribbon is wrinkled! Yikes! And the snow is 3 feet deep, but most of the enviromentally friendly led lights I have still work from last year... lost my gloves but they are black and I found them in the white snow... decided to put up an extra Christmas stocking with a small holly wreath on the front door... now I remember why I planted holy in the back garden years ago, too bad the holly bush with the red berries died but the other one is going strong... for the tradition Christmas pudding. The stocking has bells, the cat really likes it...