Bipolar Support Group

saw two more things today in a 15 minute period. I was at a resturant with some folks. I was tired and had decided I didn't feel well enough to eat. SO I'm sitting there sippin on my tea. Out of the corner half of my eye I see smoke filling that part of my vision in the place. I go to look straight at it and it's gone. It wasn't steam, like would come from a plate of sizzling fajitas..it was smoke. and lots of it. Then..about 8 minutes later..I see it again.

And about two or three nights ago, I wake up to white flashing lights out side every winder of my house at the same time. So I get up out of bed and go to each window and look. And I can't see the cause, but the flashing lights continue as I'm trying to find out where they are coming from. This goes on for about five whole minutes until I finally decide there is absolutely nothing I can do about it..hubby refused to listen to me or get up.(and I don't blame him because I've been waking him up for the past two weeks at 11pm asking him if I'd left the stove on and then I get up to go check..drives him nuts)

So I go to bed. Because I figure, if something bad was gonna happen, it would've happened already.

so my question is..anybody ever hear of a waking migraine(supposed to be painless from what I heard from a friend) and secondly...do cop cars even have white flashing lights at all?(the only reason I'm asking is because the neighbors were having a loud arguement outside earlier but when I saw the lights I couldn't hear the arguement anymore)

I'm not sure what area you're in, but in the southern U.S. the lights are blue and white. I usually see shadowy objects, myself. Every once in a while I'll catch a flash of light, but it's the shadows more for me.

Also, if the police had shown up, and lights actually were flashing, nine time out of ten, the argument would have been calmed to a level of which you probably wouldn't have heard it inside the house anyway.

Hope this eases you a little about the lights.

Hugs,

Zin

blue and white huh..well, I'm in florida and these were only white. I guess I was grasping at straws. I had to be sure I was seeing things before I called the doctor. I wish I could remember exactly what night it was. i get real nervous about changing my antispychotic around. i'm teaching vbs starting sunday and I can't not do it.

Blue & White??? Everywhere I've lived they have been blue and red. But I haven't lived very many places. I don't know if I see things. I think sometimes I do but more I feel like I after being somewhere for a period of time I feel like people are following me. Example: We went to Wal-Mart yesterday (yuk) I was fine for about half the time we were there, then I started feeling like people were following me or standing way to close. Then there are times when I think my bf has said something to me when I'm in the other room and when I come and ask what did you say he says I didn't say anything. I do that with other people as well. So I'm not sure if I'm getting parnoid or if my anxiety is getting worse. I plan on talking to my psych doc during my next appt. So other than that I don't have much more to help you with. Just thought I would share what I'm going through as well.

Yes, I agree with afmom, you should probably talk to you PDOC about this..Have there been any changes in your meds or other changes that you have been going thru...like extra stress or a lot of anxiety...these could have effects on you too..God Bless, Michelle

I have been trying to get ahold of my pdoc all morning. at first the weekend meesage was still on the phone from the holiday "do not leave a message as we will not be able to retrieve it" then I just called again and the secretary is out until july 2nd. so the pdoc is handling it all himself...seeing patients and returning calls intermittantly. so I don't know when I'll recieve a call and cannot leave my house until he calls for fear of missing it. now I feel kinda lost.

and yes I'm stressed out. I have this new fear that my house is gonna burn to the ground with me in it. I keep getting up in the middle of the night to check if I left the stove on after cooking dinner..or if my hubby did it(he's ben known to at times forget for about 30 mins at a stretch). sometimes I'll get up more than once. This is totally new behavoir for me. and the only med change is that I'm taking an antibiotic for swollen glands from a cold I had a few days ago.

Mimmy, Another thing that you should do is pray because GOD does not want you to live in FEAR....You may also want to consult yor Pastor and ask them to pray with you too...I will also be praying for you, that GOD give you a sound mind and peace and stillness in your heart and mind and that he cover you with his blanket of protection...God Bless, Michelle

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Hiya! Yeah, I'm in NC and our police changed from red and blue to red and white. The fire department and medical personal are red and white. I guess they wanted to try to avoid confusion...us dum old folks...LOL... Anyone in NC...I don't mean that!!

Yeah, I know the paranoia, too. Right now I'm just not feeling myself. I can't sleep. Stay up all night, even with a sleeping pill, 2 lorazepam, and a muscle relaxer for my tension headaches, not to mention my night antidepressant/mood stabilizer is supposed to make me sleepy. Stinks.

I do think I hear talking all the time in the house. I'll think the TV is on in another room or my daughter came home early from school, or that somebody is actually here. Sometimes I'd swear I heard the front door open, but nobody's there.

Talk to your psych, like your trying. Keep trying. As you already know, he needs to know. I had to see mine today, myself.

Hope things get better!!

Hugs,

Zin

i did get thru to my pdoc finally..after 30 mins from this post. he said to cut my abilify in half to get the orap to work and to get them to stop fighting each other.(somthing about dopamine..I really don't get all of it..but at least he tried to explain)

I said why?..and he said to stop the hallucinations and give the orap a cahnce to work on my tourette syndrome...and I said WHAT? and he said huh? see I didn't even know I had it..which confused him. so now I have that to deal with, so I hid in my house yesterday trying to wrap my brain around that one. I just needed to think about why nobody told me and if they even knew. or was this the first doc to put two and two together. I mean I'm 35 years old, you'd think sombody would have picked up on this. that's what I was thinking about yesterday. I've decided not to tell my family. They're just getting used to the bipolar thing and I was diagnosed with that in 98. but I did tell my pastor. I needed the support. The resopnse I got was, "that's wild."

he always knows just what to say....lol. Hubby just told me that the pdoc has been hinting around at this for months. I just wasn't listening.