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bpiiallen Posts: 16368
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 I have been doing ok until the past couple of weeks. Somethings have improved, but it has come to a head and now all I feel is sad. I just got home from my therapist appt and we talked about it and I just don't know why I am sad. The "that is just what depression is" thing isn't helping me feel better. I see pdoc on Saturday and I think a med change is in store. The thought of that makes me feel even worse. I am tired of feeling this way over and over again. What's the point of continuing on with meds and therapy if it really isn't helping in the long run. I know I know it takes a while for meds to work and to find the right combo. I know that this won't last and I will feel better. I know that the things I am feeling are a result of this damn disease not something I am doing wrong. I know all of these things, I just don't know how to feel better! My friends call me Dani.
Sometimes I lie awake at night and I ask, "Why me?", then a voice answers "Nothing personal, your name just happened to come up."
Charlie Brown
Sometimes the strongest women
Are the ones who love beyond all faults
Cry behind closed doors
And fight battles no one knows about.
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uppitywoman Posts: 42362
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I am sorry you are feeling sad. I won't rehash the things you already know. I just want to be a support to you. I just want you to know I care. As far as practical things, be sure you are getting enough sleep and exercise because it really does make you feel better. Anyway, know that we all care and are here for you. Post edited by: uppitywoman, at: 03/17/2011 05:45 PM With God, all things are possible
My blog:
http://uppitywomantwo.blogspot.com
Bipolar I
10mg Abilify--400mg Lamictal-90mg Cymbalta--25mg Ambien CR--200mg Topomax--30mg Temazapam--1mg Ativan as needed.
Please note that I am not a psychiatrist or psychologist. My opinions are personal only. This site is not intended to be a substitution for professional care, nor is anyone here qualified to make diagnoses. |
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bpiiallen Posts: 16368
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Thanks Uppity. I have been trying to put on the face of being ok, but it just isn't working anymore. I don't like being a downer. I feel like I should just go away until I get through this and don't bring anyone down. My friends call me Dani.
Sometimes I lie awake at night and I ask, "Why me?", then a voice answers "Nothing personal, your name just happened to come up."
Charlie Brown
Sometimes the strongest women
Are the ones who love beyond all faults
Cry behind closed doors
And fight battles no one knows about. |
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uppitywoman Posts: 42362
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No, don't go away. This is a support group. This is why we are here, to help one another through the hard times. You don't have to put on a fake face here. With God, all things are possible
My blog:
http://uppitywomantwo.blogspot.com
Bipolar I
10mg Abilify--400mg Lamictal-90mg Cymbalta--25mg Ambien CR--200mg Topomax--30mg Temazapam--1mg Ativan as needed.
Please note that I am not a psychiatrist or psychologist. My opinions are personal only. This site is not intended to be a substitution for professional care, nor is anyone here qualified to make diagnoses. |
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I agree vent away and get out anything you need to. That is what we are here for! I just wanted to tell you that we understand and are here for you. |
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Joy75 Posts: 15645
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Don't go away, you are a very special person in this community and we love you. I would not like to see you leave at all. You aren't a downer. We all have our problems and that is why we are here. You can say anything you want to say. This is a safe place and we will help you. Don't feel like you are a downer. We will help you through this. I'm sorry you are feeling this way. Sometimes depression just bites us in the butt and stays for awhile. A medication change will probably do you some good. I'm glad you have a psychiatrist appointment coming up. Don't ever give up. There is always hope. I hope that this depression leaves you with peace soon. Joy, 37 years old
Blog:
http://www.joylepley.blogspot.com
Email:
simplyjoyful75@gmail.com
Bipolar type 2 and ADD
300mg Wellbutrin
200mg Lamictal
40mg Viibryd
15mg Abilify
I AM NEITHER A PSYCHIATRIST OR PSYCHOLOGIST. I AM HERE FOR THE SAME REASONS YOU ARE. TO GIVE AND RECEIVE SUPPORT. WHAT I SAY IS PURELY MY OPINION. PLEASE CONTACT YOUR DOCTOR FOR MEDICAL ADVICE.
Bipolar disorder can be a great teacher. Its a challenge, but it can set you up to be able to do almost anything else in your life. Carrie Fisher |
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youngfilly Posts: 3066
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Please don't leave, this is the time you really need the support and this is why we are here!! Please talk to us, we will be here for you, just like you have been for us  I am not a Dr and therefore are not able to provide medical advice, the opinions I express are mine and based on my experiences and should not be taken as anything other than my opinion.
You awake as if from a nightmare to find yourself standing in front of a blank wall, dazed with no idea as to how you got there.
You feel something in your hand. You look down to see you are holding paint brush, you are confused. Out of the corner of your eye you see a table, on that table is some paint. The colours make you feel happy and safe, you look to the other side, and there is another table with paint. The colours are dark and remind you of your nightmare, a chill runs down your spine at the thought of it.
You look back at the canvas and see something you missed before. Now you understand. you chose a colour, and begin to paint.
Above the wall was written,
Your life
*Youngfilly*
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Zin
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I agree with everyone else. Don't leave...please?  ad: You never know when all that you are going thru might help someone else to feel like they are not alone. And, too, we're here for one another thru the good times and the bad. Hugs, Zin |
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sarahtroy Posts: 12155
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This is a safe place to be sad. Bipolar II, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Panic Attacks, Agoraphobia & PTSD; Alcoholic in recovery since 3/21/07.
Aplenzin 522mg; Pristiq 200mg; Lamictal 400mg; Geodon 160mg; Ativan 1mg TID; Deplin 15mg; Xanax PRN; Metoprol 100mg.
"Don't give up 5 minutes before the miracle happens."
"My little dog - a heartbeat at my feet." ~Edith Wharton
"Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle." ~Ian MacLaren (Usually mis-attributed to Plato)
"And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight inside the bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom." ~Anais Nin
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bpiiallen Posts: 16368
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Saw pdoc today and we have switched up one of my medications for another. I have hopes that it will do the trick. Take the first one tonight. Thanks for all the wonderful support. You guys are great! Post edited by: bpiiallen, at: 03/19/2011 05:33 PM My friends call me Dani.
Sometimes I lie awake at night and I ask, "Why me?", then a voice answers "Nothing personal, your name just happened to come up."
Charlie Brown
Sometimes the strongest women
Are the ones who love beyond all faults
Cry behind closed doors
And fight battles no one knows about. |
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