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zinnia
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hey, carmen-i said this somewhere-maybe here or maybe in another post-but do you think that as a group (i know it's an overgeneralization so don't anyone beat me up) that we tend to have more addictive personalities? maybe it's the need to self medicate that causes it, as so many of us are initially misdiagnosed??? just wondering what you think. Well behaved women rarely make history.
Thou canst not disturb a flower without the troubling of a star...from "Troubling a Star", by Madelaine L'Engle...we all affect one another by our words and actions...it is our choice whether to do so purposefully and positively, or carelessly and hurtfully...may we all bring to one another the peace that we seek...
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Z, I don't know that one, as many of us are misdiagnosed, and we might be possibly because of the addictions, like the bipolar's who like the mania's, alcoholic's like the "high" of the alcohol, as it takes the strain of things away, like being shy (you would not believe I am actually) for me personally, it made me more out going, was generally the life of the party, controlled the raging thoughts that were racing around my brain. My meds now, haven't taken away the shyness, it's still there, I believe the mask I have put on for so many years, got stuck. But the meds have pretty much stopped the racing thoughts, the run from project to project, never getting any of them done. I believe in a lot of ways we have addictive personalities, and the self medicating is pretty much self evident. For some reason the two I believe intertwine. |
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i agree. as you know, my manias are not so pleasant as some, and involve a ton of fear, anxiety and paranoia. when i was addicted to benzos, i know now that i was self medicating through manic episodes. i'm shy, too, and i think part of the reason i smoke is that it gives me an excuse to leave the group, whichever group that may be, and be alone for a bit to get my bearings back. interesting topic. hope others comment. Well behaved women rarely make history.
Thou canst not disturb a flower without the troubling of a star...from "Troubling a Star", by Madelaine L'Engle...we all affect one another by our words and actions...it is our choice whether to do so purposefully and positively, or carelessly and hurtfully...may we all bring to one another the peace that we seek...
"if you want others to be happy, practice compassion. if you want to be happy, practice compassion" the Dahli Laama
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I hope that others join in as well, smoking for me I believe started as a way to feel part of, I was never one of the popular ones at school, yet there was a large group of misfits, I hung out with, lol, one time in the 5th grade, I actually looked around, the popular kids, might have had one large table of kids, and those of us who knew we were misfits, had 2. |
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What is an addictive personality? I was addicted to texting. I know some people text a lot but I felt a " high" when I see the lil envelope fly into my cell phone. So, to help with that addiction, I got a different cell phone and my new phone does not have the lil envelope fly into the phone. The Razor is the phone that had the lil envelope fly. I now have a Blackberry. You know I am starting to think if the people that designed the Razor, made that envelope on purpose for those that have addictive personalities. So people would become addictive to the envelope flying. hmmmmmmm Post edited by: MissMay1977, at: 12/04/2008 05:17 Post edited by: MissMay1977, at: 12/04/2008 05:18 |
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I can say this, Katy and I used to joke that we were both crazy in the same way. It wasn't exactly the same but it was close enough that we "got" each other. I spent years trying to figure out what she was addicted to. lol. There wasn't anything. She could drink just two and walk away, no drugs, not sex....possibly food although as an alcoholic and a food addict, I never f**ked anyone for a brownie so I don't think it is on the same level. When she was finally diagnosed there was a big ah ha moment. We do have very similar ways of thinking or not thinking, tend to be impulsive and up for immediate gratification. We think the world revloves around us and we want what we want when we want it. The major difference that I have found is that it is much harder for her to wrap her mind around it. With alcoholism it was clear, if I drank, bad things happened. There was a pattern and moments of clarity. For her, she isn't doing anything to cause it. It is much harder to see and sort out. She can't just stop doing something and start recovery. And she gets trapped easier. When I start thinking that a drink is the answer, I can say that is the addiction talking. And there is a clear distinction for me as long as I stay honest with myself. She struggles with that and can argue with "it" for a little while, but eventually she cannot see it and it doesn't matter if she is being honest with herself or not..... You have delighted us long enough.
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I don't know how to use the quote button, but what you said about wanting what you want when you want it is just like me. I feel like I am addicted to food. I have it under control though because I am not obese. But I have got up in the middle of the night and called my bf at the time to bring me a butterfinger. So, I am wondering if I have addictive personality. One person once told me that I take things overboard. |
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I say this only because I had this same exact question on the medical board... the only reason why I considered stopping my meds (and not all of them mind you) was because they weren't working. In my skewed mind, I thought that my pdoc wouldn't listen to me and I would be stuck in the limbo that I was in. I of course didn't, but someone who isn't as rational as me could. So, take that into account as well, meds not working as a reason to stop meds. 400 mg Lamictal
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I know I have an addictive personality. And I'm not Bipolar (at least not as far as I can tell!) For me it's always been food. I just love to eat. Almost anything, but sweets are the best! And I was definitely addicted to pot for many years. Couldn't do it once in a while, had to be every day, pretty much all day. Somehow gave it up during Karen's psychosis last year. As far as stopping taking the meds, didn't work too well for Karen. She quit taking them, unbeknownst to me, and it wasn't pretty. But you get to feeling like your ok, or might be a little manic and not know it, and you want to quit. Maybe some can get away with it, but it seems like that for the vast majority it is bad news. And bejeweled, I might do just about anything for a good brownie! Post edited by: keepthefaith, at: 12/04/2008 09:10 |
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well i was diagnosed about 9 months ago, been on lithium and citalopram, but taken off the latter due to extreme suicidal tendencies and several attempts. i hate the way it makes me feel. i feel like a shell, like i cant express my emotions the way i want to, i feel like i have been wrapped up and only the bits people want to see are being let out. my mother who is very unsupportive (she keep telling me all i need to do is "have a positive attitude to life") says that while she doesn't believe in "all the medication stuff" she doesn't want me to stop taking it because she prefers me on them because i am much more calm and easy to be around. the thing is, i decided to stop about a week ago, and within a couple days i could feel the dark cloud descending on me (if i wasnt on them i would be in the middle of a severe depressive episode) but i hate them, i feel like i am just being what others see as the right way to be. thats my thought on it anyway.. cant live without them (literally) and dont wanna live with them |
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