Bipolar Support Group

One day I will be able to keep the housework up, be the mother & wife I need to be. And BAM, I just can't be.

I can play game after game with the kids. I can help my daughter spell words in Scrabble, I can then get my own word spelled. I can handle it. I can handle the fighting between the 2 siblings. The next day its like its a catastrophe?I feel like I want to disappear?

I look at the house and it just looks like a wreck?I feel like a freak?I tell my husband LOOK AT THIS MESS?JUST LOOK AT IT??HOW DID IT GET LIKE THIS?He is like what mess?It looks fine?What are you talking about?I feel like I am OCD or something?

Well, maybe I will have to finish later...I gotta go

Amber

I have been going to our shop doing doing the bills, entering them into the computer. Computer work/making them out takes me a few hours a couple days out of the week. No PROBLEM????Now all of the sudden its a BIG problem. Im freaking out about it. I just want to be in my house doing my own thing, not being bothered. Doing it on my own schedule. I have to go grocery shopping and the bills today at the shop and I feel so overwhelmed. Just so I can stay home tomorrow and do some cleaning before the kids are home fore holiday break. I don't know where all this is coming from?I havent been all OCD in like YEARS????

I just started thinking, because a friend is coming over for Thanksgiving, and she is way OCD. I guess I want things perfect for 'her'. I just need to chill.

I don't no if it's really just that or if it's holidays coming up or if I am just cycling or it's all combined?

My therapist thought my daughter was doing well enough to cancel her appointments to every other week, but she wanted me to keep mine going every week. How bad is that?I said, should we start mine every other week. She said Nooo, I think you should come next week. So, I am going in today. I am thankful for that. I guess she new what she was talking about huh?

Post edited by: momof2rugrats, at: 11/24/2008 06:07

Post edited by: momof2rugrats, at: 11/24/2008 06:18

I think that your pdoc should get you in ASAP, there is obviously some tinkering needed to you regimen. I know that when I've gone through mixed states (twice), I wanted to lose it. So I can imagine what you're feeling.

I hope that you can talk to your pdoc soon.

I hope they see you ASAP