Hate Me? He hates Me?

I guess thats only if you are normal but if you are bipolar as my ex-fiance, father of my newborn is then somehow he still sleeps at night although he finds ways to tell me how much he hates me..

Im like damn, did he get with me just to have someone to hate in a year besides his mother?

He has put me through hell...leaves me alone with his son and goes on a trip to miami to live his life after cheating on me.. he worked 3 months out of a year and expected that to pay all the bills and wanted to tell me how to spend my money on top of it..

How do you turn around and tell me you hate me after you cheated on me?

Sick Motherf*&^%&

I am tired of being tied up in this emotional mess of missing him, why do i miss him..he barely helped me while i was pregnant and now tells me that giving him a son was nothing special since women do it all the time. He begged me to get engaged., and to have a baby now he has thrown us all away because i didn't listen to him..tell me what to do with my money and I lost some.. to me so what, we never lost our home, food or electricity, we may have gotten car repossesed but i replaced it in a week, (he left the day it got repossessed) yet he takes no responsibility in any of our losses, i am so tired of the crap..

He finds me on my space after leaving for miami 2 weeks ago to tell me "fuc* you, my hate is so strong"

i am here with my 2 kids like what? I put him on child support yesterday, since he has time to send hate messages and have unprotected sex all day and not support his son, we will see how he can deal after he realizes the reality of having to be a real parent.. he has time to play now it is time to pay..

i never wanted to put him on child support but if he abandoned me and continues to say terrible things including threats to me, it is very necessary for him to feel some true heat..i am glad that he doesn know where i live.. i am so sick of him, he is a no good, evil moocher probably looking for another desperate woman to feel sorry for him and take him in.. that was me last yr, i got a beautiful boy out of it..now i finally saw him for what he truly is a damn leech..

I should hate him..but i don't I am just so disappointed because I believed in him, and I believed him, he said he would be there, he said he would never leave.. but i have been here before with my last childs father except i had no idea about this thing called bipolar, at least he would leave and i didn t hear from him for a while (1yr or 2) then he would call like nothing ever happened. i always thought that was strange. Unfortunately after not hearing from him for a bout 2 yrs i get word that he shot himself in the head back in May 2004. Now after dealing with this one, I am looking at myself like wait a minute, what the hell is wrong with me, why do these guys attach to me like flies and I like it.. good lord, I have got to find out what is wrong with me so that this type of man doesn't find me again..

Hopefully the fate of my last childs father doesn't turn out the same for my newborn son..

The one thing that I am happy about is the fact that my daughters father and I were on good terms last we spoke, so what ever happened with him had nothing to do with me.. cause we were ok with each other..

My newborns father tries to use that fact against me saying that I made her father kill himself.. that wont work on me because i know in my heart i had nothing to do with that..

Now i need to get away and stay away from this one.. he has treated me the worst out of the two of them.. and he started off as the sweetest go figure..

Saving myself, and standing up for my rights as a woman, mother and human being, no more, i will take no more, I didnt even answer his message I just left it alone.. he is a sad individual, the only reason why we hate someone is because we want to be just like them.. its a damn shame that i ended up with someone who was jealous of me..

So Sad, so hurt, so very disappointed in myself more than he.

All I can say is that I am bipolar and really understand what I have put my husband through. I totally feel for you, but he has to help himself and sounds like he has not so good luck to you. I know you love him. Congrats on your baby, enjoy every minute of it. But don't feel bad for someone who will not except responsibility and get help and do what he has done to you. Sounds like you have done enough its time for him.

Lilly

Thank you, I am tired, I am through, life is too short..I must move on..