Bipolar Support Group

So... I missed another party! Because I'm sitting here looking a mess! So, what excuse this time? People probably think I'm being unsociable, they have no idea that I want to go.. but I always end up in one of "my moods" and end up sitting in a dark room somewhere looking at the wall in a big t-shirt and big warm up pants! My husband, ended up shopping by himself all day, the kids went to the party without me! This is just out of control. I'm really tired of this... but I honestly can't control it...

That's too bad that you missed the party. It's hard when you end up in a mood. Sometimes you just can't do the things that you want to do. At least you are on the computer reaching out to people in a support group. That is something at least. I know what you mean when you get tired of it. I am stable right now, but I have been down the same road.

Before I got stable on my current meds. I avoided parties and get togethers. Everything would be okay and I would want to go, however if i did go. I always felt melancholy and people would notice. I just wanted to jump in and have a good time...however when you are depressed feeling it can be so hard to put a smile on your face. I mean a real smile. It seems my brain is so filled up with thoughts etc. that I can't concentrate on having a good time. I don't know if you feel this way or not, but i do understand the moods. Now that i'm stable on my meds i feel better able to have a good time...are you on meds? I hope you don't miss any more parties. Everyone told me life is too short to be depressed all the time. But people just can't understand that it is a disease that often gets the better of you. I hope you don't miss anymore parties. Sometimes once you get out and start having fun the dread will slip away. Sometimes all it takes is to actually get there, that can be half the battle. Good luck to you and i hope your moods stabilize and you start to enjoy being around others. I do understand where you are coming from though. Try and have a good day!!!

I do the same thing. Even going to the family for Thanksgiving. I sit in the other room, come out to eat. I spend all my time with the animals. I prefer animals to the people in my family!

I have missed gatherings, too, sometimes because of feeling depressed before I was stabilized by medications. I know it's hard to be around people when you feel that way. Don't add to your feeling down by being hard on yourself for it. Your feelings are not your fault. I go to gatherings now even though I am an introvert. I take Ativan and it helps me feel calm and I am able to interact better with people. When you get stable, you should feel better in general, but I do understand how you feel. I hope you will not feel bad about yourself because of this. Try to put it behind it behind you and focus on taking care of yourself right now.

Well, there will always be parties! So if you missed this one, try to go to the next =)