When I was 16 I lost my baby boy. My beloved kitty. He was an inside/outside cat, although I told everyone not to let him outside, as people drove like maniacs around where I live. Of course no one listened to what I had to say because I am never right about anything... One night I went to call Lucky Blue inside but he didn't come. This was unusual. So I kept calling, got the food bag and shook it but still nothing... I had school the next day so I had to go to bed with out my boy. I knew some thing wasn't right. He was like a son to me. The weekend past and he was still gone. I posted signs, went to the animal shelter...nothing...My baby boy was gone...forever... What was I to do? He was my life. He was only 3 years old when he left me. So young! It was just not fair. I still cry to this day for him. Its been 3 years since he's gone. I assume he got hit by a car. I still look for him though. I never give up hope that he's still out there. Even though its crazy to think he's still out there, I cannot help it. I love that cat more than anything. People think im crazy for loving an animal so much but they couldnt possibly understand the bond I had with him. So, I understand how you feel. I completely understand. You have to remember that even though you love your cat so much and you can't bare to put him down, you may have to because he is suffering. He will be happier and not in any pain once he/she goes. Keep pictures around so you'll always remember that cute face. I still have pictures of my baby in my room. If anything were to happen to those pictures I would be devastated. Even when I knock them over I get sad because thats my baby boy who wasn't supposed to leave me. Spend as much quality time with your cats as you can. I know its a hard, HARD time. I lost my dog who I basically grew up with to brain cancer, she was having seizures and we had to put her down. It was very hard. Hardest thing we've had to do, but we saw she was suffering and we knew we had to let her go. I think you will be okay. I don't know if you believe in spirits but if you do just know they'll be with you in spirit if they do both have to go. Keep posting on here, we are all here to help. If you ever need to talk feel free to send me a PM. Diagnosed with Bipolar I.
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But, just know the time they have with you wasn't wasted. Instead of being there physically, I'm sure it's with you always now 
Everything happens for a reason, and when the ones we love don't stay for long, it just proves every day is precious. I hope you start feeling better soon. I know it's hard.
