Bipolar Support Group

I've had it up to HERE with this job. I'm doing the best I can, I really am. Yesterday I got called into my boss' boss' office and lectured about how I am not performing, I am making little mistakes in my data entry, I am not keeping things organized, etc. These are things that I have discussed with them and made them aware that are caused by my disability due to the BP. They put me on 30 day notice, so basically, I have 30 days to turn it around or I'm out. Isn't there some kind of legal reprecussion here? Don't they have to make reasonable accomodations for me before they can just fire me? I looked up the ADA and that was the impression I got...

So meanwhile, there has been this totally stressed feeling between me and my boss. She won't even speak to me. I should have known things were going to get ugle when I first started working for her and realized what a control freak/anal rententive person she was. Actually, I did realize it and hoped that I would be able to perform up to her standards. I guess I was wrong - I knew I wouldn't be able to. My mind just doesn't process little details, something that is pretty bad if you work in the accounting department. I constantly transpose numbers, so I go slower when I double check, but we are urged to keep up our speed, so I'm screwed. And the whole organization thing has never come easy for me. I try to make lists and prioritize but it always falls apart in the end. It's like my brain just doesn't think that way, it never has. I don't know how to help myself here. Sorry to just whine, but I needed to get this off my chest...

I feel your pain. I find it difficult to focus and produce consistant work when I am contending with this illness. I go through phases where I'm doing great at work and then I hit the wall and I just fade out. It's very frustrating for me. Mostly I notice this when I'm in a down cycle. I have a hard time getting my head in the game. Last week I thought for sure I was going to get called in by my boss because I haven't been producing lately. I have to make an effort to correct this because I need my job, I like my job, and absolutely none of us with this illness CAN'T be without health benefits because of the outragious cost of managing this illness, medication, doctor visits, etc.

You can get better at organizing. Each morning or even the night before when I'm leaving the office I take a few minutes to write out a quick list of what needs to be done the next day. If you start with making just a few items on the list each day and focus on getting those things done, you can, over time, begin to get better at listing what you have to do and sticking to a game plan each day. It's not easy but it's worth it so that you at least feel more in control of your work. Try it. I don't proclaim to have all the answers but I know for me trying to take baby steps in the right direction really helps me mentally.

Good luck!