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I went to bed last night about an hour early. Hubby went to bed and so I followed. If I don't go to bed about the same time he does, I end up losing track of time and staying up way too late.

I laid in bed and watched the rest of NCIS and then hubby turned the tv off and I tried to go to sleep but a sudden wave of panic/anxiety came over me. I had already taken 1 klonopin. I ended up taking 2 more.

I kept thinking about my therapy appointment today. I'm worried she's going to say something about not seeing me in so long. I kept going over all the stuff in my head that I need to talk to her about and then worrying about hubby not being able to get off work on time. (he's supposed to call and leave me a message on his lunch break) If he can't get off work on time, I'll have to cut my session short by 15 minutes so I can be home to get the older kids off the bus.

For some reason, at least I think it was the klonopin that did it, I became very restless. I felt like I had to get up and move. But I didn't. I laid there and fought the urge to get up because I worried if I got up I wouldn't get back to bed and get any sleep at all.

I finally fell asleep, but I kept waking up. It seems like every hour I woke up. And then I woke up before the clock went off and got up. Not like me at all.

I'll be glad when this day is over.

Sorry about the anxiety and the rough night of sleep you got. That is never good. I hope you aren't too tired today and that you don't have to cut your appointment short at the therapist's appointment. I also hope that the day goes by with no problems for you. Try to keep up some positive thoughts and go about your day as usual. Good luck and we are here for you.

Sorry to hear that you had a bad night. Try and not worry about not seeing her for awhile. I can promise you that this happens all the time. You are not the only one. I am infamous for doing that and tend to only rely upon a therapist during a crisis period. It is very common so again don't beat yourself up over that. I know that anxiety can be very disabeling.I have found that when I think about something over and over the outcome is almost never what I expected. In addition since your sleep was changed you will likely be more anxious. Try to relax if you can and know that we are here for you if you need to talk. If she does mention that you haven't seen her in awhile- she would probably say something like this " I have missed you, how have things been for you." You can then start off with what is bothering you, etc.

Ugh, work was rough too. I almost left early a few times. It was pretty slow today and I had to keep myself busy or else the anxiety started up again. Hubby called and said he should be out of work on time. So that's a good thing at least.

I hate it when I have a night of sleep like that. It doesn't feel like you've slept at all! I think that you'll be fine with your therapist. They're used to people coming and going depending on what's going on in their lives.

I hope you get a better nights sleep tonight.