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09/17/2010 02:46 PM

The Ending

IDoNotKnow

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Wow I don't know how to start this post because I can't catch a thought in my racing mind. I am floating right now. I am listening to Schubert, a piano Impromptu. It would be so nice to be that talented. I close my eyes and travel with him to a world like no other.

Schubert will keep me safe. You all are keeping me safe from the people that are following me. Thank you so very much. I am in my room and know they can't find me here. I am safe. In some ways I feel so completely alone and in other ways I feel like I am with my best friends. LOL to think I have friends... I am listening to The "Trout" right now.

Thank you for keeping me safe from the people that are following me. They want me dead and will stop at nothing.

"If you could read my mind you would be in tears"

"Who cares when I cry"

"A smile just hides the tears we hold inside."
- Me (IDNK)

09/17/2010 03:08 PM Top
tekmanmike	Feels overwhelming doesn't it? I know how you feel, but you will learn as I did that as long as you don't get violent, they won't actually come for you. If your prescribed anti psychotics, take them, try not to watch the news-read a book, get a bite to eat, listen to music (like your doing), play a video game, something that isn't going to stress you to much. It's tempting to play their game or to provoke a response from them-try not to do this, it only makes things worse. When you feel up for it, go see or at least call your doctor. Pm me anytime, Mike

09/17/2010 03:19 PM Top

Joy75

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I"m sorry you are still thinking that they are after you. Occupy your mind. Keep busy, keep listening to music. You like that. Take your medications. See your doctor in time. They won't get you, because they aren't there. I hope you feel better and the feeling goes away. Love and hugs.

Joy, 37 years old

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09/17/2010 03:25 PM Top

boonescreekgirl

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I've been there hun and it does feel like they are coming for you. At least you have a safe place and are able to relax to some music that you like. You can send me a private message also if you feel like chatting about it. Take your medication and have some fun. You do have friends, even though we live far apart, we are still friends.

Melissa

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09/17/2010 04:24 PM Top

IDoNotKnow

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Okay I will keep doing these things until they find me. Please be careful. Don't let them find you!!!! Please be careful.

I am in my room. They can't hear me here. They can however find me at my work. I pray constantly that the kids and I will be safe. I pray. I don't know if I should tell administration.

Please be careful!!!!

"If you could read my mind you would be in tears"

"Who cares when I cry"

"A smile just hides the tears we hold inside."
- Me (IDNK)

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09/17/2010 04:45 PM Top

IDoNotKnow

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All of you be very careful!!! Okay?

"If you could read my mind you would be in tears"

"Who cares when I cry"

"A smile just hides the tears we hold inside."
- Me (IDNK)

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09/17/2010 05:01 PM Top

boonescreekgirl

Posts: 280
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I'm being careful and I hope you are too! Stay in your safe place. Listen to safe music. I would not bother letting administration in on your thoughts. They will think you are crazy and you could possibly lose your job. Please call your pdoc as soon as you can and let them know about your feelings and thoughts. I'm saying a prayer for you and hope you have some relief from these feelings and thoughts of other people out to get you soon.

Melissa

Bipolar I
_________________________
Prescription Meds Daily:
Geodon 160mg
Abilify 15mg
Propranolol 10mg
Levothyroxin 50mcg

Previous discussions I participated in:
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i found a sliding scale fee place
Huge mistake

09/17/2010 05:08 PM Top

Dit

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Thanks for warning me, i will be careful. I hope you will feel safe because you are praying and nothing can hurt you God is with you, you are safe. You need to call your pdoc right away b/c nobody is after you, and if you think they are you need to tell your pdoc all about what you are thinking, i'm sure he'll understand. If you feel worse, go to ER, they can help keep you feeling safe there, keep praying, i will pray for you too.

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09/18/2010 06:17 AM Top
norma Posts: 10109 Group Leader	Call the doctor, honey. Sounds like you need to have your meds tweaked. Paranoia is a symptom of mania. Safety is in getting medical professional help for this feeling. I strongly recommend you call the doctor TODAY!!! PLEASE! If not tell someone you trust your feelings of bein in danger. Have them come stay with you until you can get help. Keep posting here...we care about you. Comments made by me are from my own experience and they are my opinion alone, whose intent is only to share that opinion and not to give medical advice nor discourage from seeking medical help. Medicine is best left to the professionals that is what they do. "In the time of your life, live-so that in that wondrous time you shall not add to the misery and sorrow of the world, but, shall smile to the infinite variety and mystery of it." William Saroyan Disclaimer: The information provided in MDJunction is not a replacement for medical diagnosis, treatment, or professional medical advice. Rest in Peace, Gloria...you will be missed. Previous discussions I participated in: make it go away Grieving Hi there...
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