Bipolar Support Group

That's what I feel like. I can be relatively happy one minute, and then something happens, it can be something as simple as dropping something, and my mood changes. Does anyone else experience this? Is it normal for this to happen with this disease? I wish I had all the answers to the questions I have. I wish I had a diagnosis. I wish I could be happy. I wish I could stop being a screw up.

Sounds like rapid cycling. I rapid cycle, but it usually is in days, altho I have changed during the course of one day, too. I hate that. You may need a med adjustment.

And you're not a screw up. This has nothing to do with you as a person. You have a disease, it's NOT a personality trait. Please remember that ((HUGS))

Thank you. I just feel so helpless, hopeless and worthless right now. I'm scared to death I'm going to have another "episode" and leave again. And my husband told me this time, if I leave again not to come back. I have left 3 times in the past two months. I can't blame him. Someone has to protect the kids from all this crap. I call my therapist on friday to tell her whether I feel any better from being on the lamictal 100 mg. She said she will take it up to 200 mg if I'm not feeling better (which I'm obviously not) and then if the 200 mg doesn't work, she will assume I have major depressive disorder. I dont know what kind of anti-depressant they think they are going to put me on though. I've been on just about every one there is. I feel like things are never going to get better and I"m going to end up in a mental institution forever. I know I'm being negative, whiney, and a pity **ore right now, but damnit, I'm tired of this crap!

It takes a while for those meds to kick in. And sometimes when you are on the depressive end, you need an antidepressent AND a mood stabilizer. 100 mg may not be enough for you. Hang in there, when it gets kicked up, you may start to feel better. They start it at low doses to keep the side effects low.

Just try to hang in there and wait for the meds to kick in, hun.

Don't worry about venting here, we all do once in a while

You aren't a screw up. You're just having bad days. Take it easy on yourself. If you are feeling bad maybe you shouldn't wait until Friday? Are you just on Lamictal alone?Have they thought about trying an anti-depressant with the Lamictal?Not a Dr. but?Just have heard that the Bipolar meds work good with a combo of an antideperessant?

We are here for you!

Hugs,

Amber

I was on wellbutrin when this whole mess started. My psychiatrist thinks that is what triggered my manic episode. She took me off the wellbutrin and put me on the lamictal starter pack. No anti depressant as of yet. Something has to give. I can't take much more of this.

jritchie is right, I know taht for some people Lamictall can be slow reacting too. 100mg is on the lower end of the "normal" dose scale and it can go up all of the way up to 600mg I am told by the pdoc. You really should talk to your pdoc about an antidepressant. There are tons of them out there and it'll take some time but there and often various combinations of meds but there is something out there that will work for you, you just have to keepp trying. I have been thorugh 8 months of depression, a couple of which were pure hell and seemed hopeless but I now have my mood stabilizer and Trazodone, Wellbutrin, Tramadol to augment and Provigil to offset and I am actually starting to feel good again. Hang in there it'll take some time but there is hope.

pendulum is right, it can be scary when you don't know how you are gong to feel from one moment to the next. i think about next year, how i would like to get married. we can't afford a big wedding, etc. but my point is, i am terrified that i am suppossed to have one special happy day and already i am worried that i will be one big hot mess! just because i never know... and since stress makes it worse, i can just imaging. i hate being the center of attention also. this got off track.

i know how you feel is my point. i take lamictal too, 300 mg. but along with an antidepressant, an anti anxiety, and an antipsychotic

yippee!