Bipolar Support Group

I really don't know where to turn. I feel if I tell anyone in my life how I really feel, they are going to think I'm a drama queen. I cry alone, I am constantly picking fights with my fiance, I have constant and horrible moodswings, I am restless most of the time, and I don't know what to do. This is getting to be too much for me. I just want to hide in a room somewhere. I make my fiance feel like sh*t for no apparent reason, and I really don't want to hurt him...but I cannot help it! I have serious trust issues. Sometimes I am completely apathetic, and other times I care so much that it physically hurts. I am more depressive than manic, but I love it when I am manic. I wish I could feel that way all the time. I don't do illegal drugs. I just need some help. To possibly talk to someone who understands, and doesn't think I'm insane, and doesn't immediately tell me to "just snap out of it"...because I can't. I have no health insurance, I'm a college student, and I work fulltime. I'm assuming I need meds. Any thoughts or suggestions will help. Thank you!

I dont' know how you feel about this... since you are a college student, maybe you could get on medicaid? go to your local health and human services and ask...all they could say is your not eligble and you really haven't lost anything

Welcome..I would try my college med building and ask about the health dept..Or some kind of income based clinic...Also check in to an Insurence like Famis or some thing like that..I`ve been in there before ..It takes alot to admit you might be BP/or suffer from depression..We don`t seek attention on this illness..

Nicole- When I was in college the psychology teachers offered therapy on campus for free, you might want to ask what services are available for students. Also, recently I couldn't really afford therapy so I got a referral from EAP (lots of employers offer Employee assistance programs) and the therapists worked on a sliding scale, so do psychiatrists. My last psychiatrist gave me two 5 week sample kits of Lamictal (for free) so I am sure something can be worked out. Meds can be expensive but pharmacies like Walgreens offer a discount program for @ $25.00/year. Also, and this is a long shot, but lots of colleges run research programs that offer free drugs for being involved in mental health studies. I have never done one, but I have seen programs offered from reputable Universities. Please follow up on this. It is worth it, and you are worth it. Please don't feel like there is nothing you can do. Oh and, Crisis hotlines also give free (phone) counseling and referrals to therapists and psychiatrists who work on sliding scales.

Thank you, very very much. I've always been a pretty straightforward person, and known what I wanted and needed to do. Within the past 3-4 years my mind's gone a little haywire. Again, thank you.