lowest low

Hey, Hey, my friend..., it sounds as though YOU could use "three positive thoughts."

If I felt the way you do, I might go to a good movie (something that would give me emotional relief)--maybe a good love story with a happy ending. I'd pig out on popcorn, gummy bears, and a big icy orange drink (diet drink for guilt control--haha!).

I'm not talking about isolation--just talking about getting away. Take one of the kids with me, take a friend--take a break.

What do you think? If you live close to us, we'll all go together.

Keep your chin up, okay? You have been on the roller coaster many times, so you should know that, if you can find the strength to endure, things will ease up. Most of what's troubling you are things about which you probably can't do much.

When I am faced with that situation, I practice letting go--trying to focus on what I CAN handle.

...like right now--my wife wants me to do some dishes (nothing left in the cupboard--thank God for paper plates!), then I think we'll drive out to the beach.

There is always this 15 knot wind blowing off the Gulf of Mexico. The wind blows steadily in my ears and drowns out all the noise in my brain.

Sometimes procrastination is the only effective tool to cope with things I can't handle. The beach is a great place to procrastinate! ...and doing nothing is often the best way I have to avoid making things worse.

The exciting thing about my chaotic life is that I never know what's around the corner; but, with the right attitude, it is usually an adventure!

All right..., enough from me.

Kindest regards,

Motor-mouth Jim

I did find some humor in me saying find three positives. I have focused briefly on those. Today might not have been the best day to go shopping for a dress for commencement next week. Big downer It's funny you say ecape because my supervisor (who I've been very open with about this crash) suggested I take a mental night off. So I think I"m going to pick up some burgers for the kids and crash on the love seat in my pjs and catch up on a couple of the movies the kids have. Something none mental...I haven't seen Cars but they love it.

and in between my first post and this one I took my shoes off and let the cold tile hit my feet. Its so silly but it made me warm inside. Reminding me of taking your shoes off in spring and feel the fresh grass under my feet when ground is still cold. I hope that feeling lasts.

I hope you find some of this time for yourself.

God bless you!

D

Dee

I even took a road trip that was planned in advance with the ex and we had a really good talk. He finally admitted he need to do some work on himself that our problems weren't all me. And he said he was really proud of how I really seemed to be working hard to get myself well for the first time ever. He said the old me in my eyes again. We did however decide to give each other breathing room for a while so we can work on ourselves without wrapping up our worlds in taking care of each other. Been there! Done that! it's not healthy if I"m trying to get well. Overall it's another good day. I finally have relaxed enough to realize a good day is a good not the beginning of manic moment. It feels really good.