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Let me give you a little back story to help you understand a little bit better what I'm getting ready to babble about. Ever since I can remember, I've had this feeling in the pit of my stomach that I would die young, 25 to be exact. When I was in a deep depression at 16, I made a lot of my "notes" out to be opened posthumously or at 25.

Fast forward to present day. I am now less than a month a way from 25 years old, August 4th. So I have a little over a year to go before I make it past this prophecy. It's making me a little anxious, wondering if in the next moment something terrible might happen to me. I don't know how to get rid of this deep-seated fear because it has been "common knowledge" to me for so long. I'm terrified of the next year and what it might have in store for me. Is this a true prophecy or is it just a case of childhood morbidity?

I think it is childhooh morbidity as you call it. 25 is a very easy number to pick. This is simoething you came uo with nine years ago, when you were 16. i think 25 is gonna come and go just as quickly as you let it. Im sorry you are so afraid of the next year but you'll see .... nothing is coming to get ya.

My great grandmother used to say, I knew you'd come back to me. I always said, but I'm right here. After all the grandparents died, there was a photo of her sister in the bible, lily lightfeather, died 2/22/1922 who looked just like me, I was born 2/22/63, she died when she was 25.

The day of my 25th birthday in the beginning was my worst, it is very possible, who you were in the past, showed itself, like mine did, and that that person, not you died at age 25.

After the morning of my 25th was over, she was shot, and I did get a peircing blast in my ear, and then all was calm so i could enjoy the rest of the day. I'm 47 now.

...Deph:"Is this a true prophecy or is it just a case of childhood morbidity?"

"Is this a true prophecy "

Only one word here ridiculous. No one of this earth at this time is a prophet.

"childhood morbidity"

Yeap that is it. Mind you I am sure a tdoc could add one or more reasons as to why a child would think like this. Or lead you to a point where you find out yourself the reason for this childhood thought.

Jennywren

Dark, this is a case of childhood morbidity. 25 for some reason seems a significant age. I don't know why, but it seemed important to me when I reached it. I had a similar thing with 30. I just knew I would be dead before I reached it. I lived my life very carelessly and did all kinds of really unhealthy things because I was going to die anyway. I came close to it by my addictions, but it came and went and I was still on this earth. Don't let this "self prophecy" torment you. It will only rob you of peace of mind and distract you from living fully in the present.

Child morbidity definitely. I'm sorry you have lived with this for such a long time. You have been living with this fear for years when you should have been at peace. Don't let your mind do this to you. Seek a therapist please. This person will help you greatly to let go of the childhood fear you have of dieing at that age. Try to bring peace into your life and take a deep breath of fresh air. Enjoy your surroundings, don't think about the age. Think about the here and now. Enjoy yourself and the people around you. I hope you can come to terms with this. Your mind needs to be set at ease to continue your life without fear. I hope you seek some help. Stay strong. Hugs