I agree with Dit that marital counseling might be helpful. Also, if he has never learned anything about bipolar disorder, he may not understand that you really cannot control what you think at times. Ask him to go to a pdoc appointment with you, or to your therapist if you see one. Go to the nih.gov site or mayoclinic.com and print off the symptoms of bipolar disorder for him to read. "Bipolar for Dummies" is a good basic book about BP that is easy to read that perhaps he would at least read some of. I am sorry he responded to you that way. You need the support right now. Find it elsewhere for now. You said you told your mother, too. Hopefully, she can offer some support for you right now. Call your pdoc and tell him/her what has happened and see if a med change is needed. If you have recently started a new med, that might be the source of your thoughts as sometimes the very meds that are to help us actually can cause suicidal thoughts. Keep posting here and let us support you. BUT if these thoughts persist and get urgent, you really need to go to the hospital ER. There are also hotlines you can call and talk with people for extra support. They provide a listening ear and sometimes that is all that is needed. But again, if the thought of harming yourself gets urgent, please go to the nearest ER for help. With God, all things are possible
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