momof2rugrats
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 I have felt so great for the past 1-2 weeks. Got a lot of things done..Ive been pretty productive. I feel like im winding down real fast..Im back to being sluggish, feel like im drowning, not wanting to get out of bed, no motivation, no desire..What do I do?Is there a way to prevent this??I promise my kids fun things to do when im feeling great, an hour later im feeling like the world is just crushing me, to get up and fulfill a commitment I made to them is like picking up a 100 lb brick, i can't do it?? Then they sit in disappointment..Im back to wishing I wouldnt wake up in the morning...My eating habits are getting worse, i am craving candy or sweet stuff like crazy. It makes me feel sooo great just to get that sugar..I have been thinking about this a lil bit..My mother/father was alcoholics...Umm, well, they still are UGH...I seen what it done to them and for some reason turned me SO off..I no it can be so easy for me to become..But i have no desire to put my children thru what I went thru as a child..So, i am struggling with an eating issue..I am just 13 lbs away from what a woman my height and age should weigh..But if i dont watch it carefully i can stray WAY WAY away from that.. I dont no what to do here..I try to start every day a new day, its just not happening for me.. Im feeling like I need a higher dose of meds.. I go to my pdoc on Friday so we will see? My name is Amber, Im 30 years old..Married for almost 12 years to my wonderful husband (together for 14). We have 2 children boy/girl. I have recently been diagnosed having Bipolar II.
Im glad to have found this website..I have lots of supportive people in my family. There is nothing else like having people to come to that truely understand, exactly what you are going thru or feeling! |
