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Hi Laur, Reading your post is so sad to me because it hits so close to home. EVERYTHING you said about your husbands behavior right now is exactly what my husband is experiencing right now. My H also is "acting" happy go lucky and friendly to everyone except me. I'm getting the brunt of all his rage. I can so relate to the thing where he goes out of his way to walk around you so your bodies don't have to touch. I started laughing because it's so silly when I read it but I know it hurts like heck when I'm the one he's avoiding. My H also thinks he's just fine. Right before he told me to go sleep with our daughter he said he doesn't even think he's BP, he said his friend has been telling him about how Doctors try to dx you with something so that they and the RX companies can make money. All I could think was oh CR*P here we go on the rollercoaster again. My H seems to be rapid cycling now. You said you want to scream WIERDO!! (me too!!) But I know you must really love him as I do my H too, because you said you want to cry for feeling that way. I'm so glad I read your post tonight. I'm sorry that you're going through the same thing that I am right now but I do feel comforted knowing I'm not the only one. Thanks for listening to me vent to. |
but I understand how you feel. I feel like public enemy #1 half the time. When he is cycling like that, he will make what I call a pillow wall in the bed, where he will line pillows between us as if touching any part of me while he slept would sicken him...then he will fall asleep and wake up and find himself holding me and scramble to recover his pillow wall. It makes me feel like crap. Sometimes when he is cycling like this, he will almost make out with me in his sleep and talk about how much he loves me and he never remembers it in the morning. Its bizarre. Im praying for some kind of leveling out. 
