Had to have an outpatient test/procedure today. I was very nervous going in and when the test did not yield any results I was very depressed - I so long for the hunt to be over and get a firm dx, but story for another day. As I was laying there post-procedure and feeling very sad and low (my physical health has been so difficult emotionally as well as physically the past 3 years and I'm looking for the dx with the miracle cure). I refused to eat or speak. I didn't want to speak b/e I was afraid I'd cry. I knew everyone thought I was nuts b/e most people would be happy with a negative result, but I didn't know the nurses would openly discuss my bp status at the nurses' station outside my door as the explanation for my behavior!! I just wanted to crawl under the floor... Stigma on stigma.... but then I thought "today I took one for the home team" so none of you should have suffered any discrimination or embarrassment! You're welcome for this day stigma-free. HNY - keep those PSA's a-comin'. H. You know it's gonna get you, somewhwere along the line... ~B. Joel
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