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07/06/2012 06:09 PM
jannajanna
Posts: 6
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Here is my story.. 3 months ago I had a husband that will never leave me, a dog, a home, etc.

Week 1: I get into a small arguement about the rent and then my husband tells me he's not sure if he wants to be me married to me anymore. That I am to anxious, jealous, depressed, make accusations, etc.

I did everything I could to show him I love him. We agreed that we would always try marriage counseling before we got divorced so I made an appointment. We went to the first appointment and he came home and packed and left. He was gone for 4 days and then came back to talk to me about the bills. We decided to be roommates. I then discovered that he had called a girl that I was always felt was after him right after he left me. When confronted he said he wanted to ask her what he should do. (btw this girl is 10 years younger and not married) When I told him he hurt me he moved out AGAIN 2 days later. He rages with anger when I calmly try to tell him that he hurt me. He tells me it's harder for him to get divorce than it is for me because he has to live with whether or not he made the right choice.

Week 2: I had surgery that monday. He was supposed to still be there for me and take care of the house even though we were splitting up. He's so mad that I confronted him. He doesn't come to my surgery or even call to see if I lived through it. Then he adds his exgirlfriend from high school on his facebook and deletes me. He texts me to tell me he is taking a small amount of money out of our account. 4 days later he comes over to "check on me" and bring bill money. He was there for all of 4 minutes.

He gets a $220 speeding ticket on the highway.

Week 3: He texts me to tell me he needs me to sign divorce paperwork the following morning. I told him to drop it off. I told him it wasn't right and that he needed to fix it before I will sign it. He is mad.

That weekend I noticed he was in my house to take a shower while I was gone. Then he says he's going out of town to teach (even though schools were out the week before) and he can't come get these *so important a week ago* papers for a few days.

Week 4: He's pushing me to move out of my house so he can move back in. He picks up the divorce papers. NO Other contacts.

Week 5: I move out of the house. He states I can take what I want as long as I don't take the tv or the bed.

He moves in the next day. A few days later he moves in the ex girlfriend that he hasn't seen since high school. He's only been "talking to her" for a 3 weeks now. He loves her. He has totally replaced me. She's sleeping in the bed he made love to me in.

We would have been married 8 years next month.

His dad and sister are both violently bipolar. I feel that he is having a manic episode as he's never been so impulsive before. I'd like your opinions and thoughts. Sorry this was so long but all of this information is important to know. Thanks in advance. Looking forward to making some supportive associations on here.

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07/06/2012 07:36 PM  Top
insomuchpain
Posts: 53
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welcome janna janna

I'm sorry you are having to deal with this. In my opinion he sounds like he is manic. How long have you guys been married? It also sounds like he is hypersexual, my husband gets that way too. He has walked ALL over you for over a month. Is he worth it to you to try and fix it? However by the sound of it, being that he now kicked you out (ASS) and moved in his xgirlfriend his messages of a divorce are pretty clear. I have read a lot of BP people just up and wanting a divorce one day. BP people will forever be on a rollar coaster the rest of their life. I think you deserve better, noone deserves to be treated that way. I do understand you are married. He clearly does not want to be. He does sound like he needs his meds reevaluated too. Im sorry hun, I know all this must be so hard. We are here for you


07/06/2012 08:11 PM  Top
jannajanna
Posts: 6
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Unfortunately he's not on meds and won't accept any idea that he might be ill. The first papers he brought me to sign was apparently done wrong. The courts told him he needed other paperwork signed, but he hasn't gotten them to me yet. it's like he just replaced me.

07/06/2012 08:11 PM  Top
jannajanna
Posts: 6
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we would be married 8 years next month

07/06/2012 09:44 PM  Top
noelle01
Posts: 150
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hey jannajanna,

sorry to hear your story. it sounds very painful what you are going through. have you read the first posting here from the warhorse "top 10 rules"?

i can totally understand not giving up on a person and in your case almost 8 years... i can only imagine what that must feel like..! but i do believe a relationship with a bp person can only "function" if there have to be certain ground rules. taking his meds are key and rule one.

i think a good thing to do would be to see a psychologist. at least there would be someone who can give you good advice, understands your feelings and might be able to talk you through the separation. comfort yourself as much as you can and focus on your life. yourself is so valuable, you deserve to be treated this way. if you have enough money and can afford taking time off, travel and stop any contact to him.

in case he comes back and regrets everything he did think about it again if you are willing to get into such a relationship again and consider rules that are a 100% w/o exception.

people like you and many many others that are in such relationships have to be strong to not to get crushed or lose all self-esteem... you have to take care of yourself first.


07/06/2012 10:53 PM  Top
jannajanna
Posts: 6
New Member

Hi thanks for the replys all. I do see my own psychiatrist and counselor. I am trying to lean on them but am finding it hard. When I found out yesterday that he had moved in another girl to sleep in our bed, I really felt like I was going to die. I really didn't care to live anymore. He is killing me literally.

Sometimes I feel as though I'm not even in my own body. like I'm living someone else's life. Sad


07/07/2012 09:33 AM  Top
livinginablender
livinginablender
 
Posts: 11292
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janna

i am so sorry that you were abused

it is not your fault.

just a suggestion,

live YOUR life

not his.

Yes, what is dying is the relationship

it feels like a death

i understand.


07/07/2012 10:27 AM  Top
jannajanna
Posts: 6
New Member

Thank you, but I don't know even what my life looks like or how it's supposed to be. I feel like I'm living someone elses life. My life is at home with my husband and my dead dog. I had this life. My soul is dying sometimes.

07/07/2012 10:49 AM  Top
livinginablender
livinginablender
 
Posts: 11292
Group Leader

janna

dream

its your dream

make it as you wish.


07/08/2012 03:39 AM  Top
Cahajasa
 
Posts: 181
Member

Im so sorry your are hurting. My question for you is would you be able to take him back after all he has done? Would you be able to live with it? I struggle with these same questions. I guess it depends on what minute you ask them to me. My husband is gone, I'm in the house but he is still taking to other woman. God only knows what he is doing with them. It kills me so I totally know your pain. Some time I think I'm better off without him because of all the pain that I have gone though and I'm not sure if I could trust him again, and it isn't over yet and then if he was to come back and say how sorry he was, because this was his first manic episode and he really had no clue on what was going on then I would cave...my love for him is so great. It is hard not to want to have the life you know and love.
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