Just the fact "He recognizes his problem" puts you ahead of the game, Living with a loved one that suffers from Mental Illness is very hard. You'll have to learn everything there is about BP, Keep him in treatment and help him get on the right meds. Learn his triggers and avoid them. You'll have to learn not to take things personal, at times the one that suffers can only cope with the day to day and sometimes we are left feeling unloved. There is hope for you and your boyfriend to make a life together, but you have to understand it will be about him and keeping him stable, your needs may come second. Have a plan for the swings, so you can cope. What worries me about you however is you said...."I know if I left him it would create even more damage. " Yes it would, but you can't think like that, thinking like that will make you feel stuck, cause resentment. That thinking is co-dependnet and it not healthy for You of him. Your on the right track and doing all the right things, don't turn you back on this illness, it will suck you out to sea kicking and screaming. Blessings. ...in my opinion.
“If I go up to the heavens, You are there; if I make my bed in the depths, You are there. If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there Your hand will guide me, Your right hand will hold me fast”.
Psalm 139:8-10
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