hi all.... I'm brand new here. although not knew to bi polar disorder. I have been married for almost 17 years & my husband was diagnosed 11 years after our marriage. He has been on medication ever since, but still is having trouble. Last year he self admitted himself to the hospital as he knew he was manic. My issue now is he hasn't been sleeping well for days, alarm bells go off when that happens. Then he started spending lots of time on the computer. I walked by yesterday & saw that he was looking up about ketamine. I looked into it & freaked out! I asked him about it & he said that he wasn't going to buy any, he was just curious about it & the new discovery of this drug helping those with bi polar. Because I have dealt with his bi polar for so many years I tend to never believe him, he is very good at lying & I have been through everything, from jail to being locked up in a mental facility with him. Things have been going fairly well but now I'm stressed again. He obviously does not feel well or he wouldn't be looking into these things. He hides so much from me, even though he vowed to always be honest. I'm just so tired, I'm tired of being strong, of being suspicious, I just want us to be happy, is that so much to ask? thanks for listening, it helps to wrote things down. |
"I've been a grateful member here for over 4 yrs this place has changed my life of course for the better, coming to the groups has enabled me to no longer feel so alone. As a group leader for the Bipolar Support group I can relate to others and am expressing my experience strength and hope and this is very rewarding, I've also made many supportive friends here whom I talk to some daily. I used to have a lot of 'lows' since becoming member here at MdJunction I no longer have these lows." (Dit)
