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02/20/2012 02:47 PM

I have these bad thoughts

rainydaysh32

Posts: 201
Member

Any one ever feel this way. Some days, after my husband has been especially mean, I think of ways that I can get rid of him. I can't just leave because he would make it horrible. I think of other ways. Ways that just might be easier. Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't ever do it for many reasons, but the thought is there. In my head. It's scary, it's disturbing, and I just want to know if I am along in this?

02/20/2012 03:14 PM Top

taylynn

Posts: 1866
Senior Member

you are not alone..i didn't think of ways to off him, but I wished he would just fall over dead many times!

If you want to know where your heart is …
Look where your mind goes when it wanders …
***************

I had been conditioned to think

I had the power to save him

I had been conditioned to believe

it was my responsibility to prevent it

and truth is

i am not qualified to do either.

Previous discussions I participated in:
hearing voices......again
Call from husband
WARHORSE, WHERE ARE YOU???

02/20/2012 05:01 PM Top
chelle005 Posts: 1918 Group Leader	I think mine should go from an overdose of Viagra. What really happens if an erection lasts more then 4 hours???????? bahahaha Previous discussions I participated in: having a crap day How do I know its mania and not him all the time? hearing voices......again

02/20/2012 07:37 PM Top

livinginablender

Posts: 11298
Group Leader

chell

i think the four hour warning

should come with a suggestion to slam it in a door.

Previous discussions I participated in:
Does life get better once they leave you?
i'm new: i'm lost and i need advice :(
Seeing I am helpless to this illness that has her

02/21/2012 08:45 AM Top

rainydaysh32

Posts: 201
Member

LOL thanks for cheering me up this morning Smile

Needed that. Glad to know I'm not alone, or crazy in my thinking.

Previous discussions I participated in:
Separated but still living together?
He's on medicine, and he's still an ass.
WHY do you allow the ABUSE??

02/21/2012 12:50 PM Top
chelle005 Posts: 1918 Group Leader	A nice big heavy duty steel door!bahahah Previous discussions I participated in: having a crap day How do I know its mania and not him all the time? hearing voices......again

02/21/2012 01:12 PM Top
sadsadhubby Posts: 589 Member	Ouch! I just thought things would go back the way they were because I thought that there was still a wonderful person with a heart that still loved me. ---why we stay with them, thanks sososad51 My love for her is eternal...see you in heaven. Well, maybe not...that was then and this is now. Not enough of me...so all my love to my son, self, and future "her". I've moved on physically and mentally....but my heart does'nt want to come along for the ride. ...thanks DrDiva I have always been able to fix things....I can't "fix" this. ....Thanks, Southerskies Stop living in hope....move on. This disease changes our loved ones into becoming the monsters we never knew existed. I have learned to mourn the Death of a Living person....for the one I loved 'died' years ago. thanks, Crushedheart We Will Never Forget...that they are the crazy ones not us! Previous discussions I participated in: How to get rid of her in my mind, in my life? WARHORSE, WHERE ARE YOU??? Revenge Plans! =P

02/21/2012 05:28 PM Top
TracyC Posts: 37 Member	i want mine to go ahead and kill himself so he can be reincarnated as my pet lizard. I think we'd both be happier that way. I'd finally be able to take care of him and keep him safe and he would let me love him. I think it would do wonders for our relationship, since his communication skills would be so much better than they are now. Previous discussions I participated in: How to get rid of her in my mind, in my life? New Member i'm new: i'm lost and i need advice :(

02/21/2012 08:16 PM Top
chelle005 Posts: 1918 Group Leader	forget the lizard,just get the ss check. Yes that is how I feel tonight. I hate him. He ruined me. Previous discussions I participated in: having a crap day How do I know its mania and not him all the time? hearing voices......again

02/21/2012 11:12 PM Top

DrDiva

Posts: 1626
Senior Member

thanks for the laughs, guys! I could use them today.

Now where did I put that skillet?

Previous discussions I participated in:
having a crap day
Unsolicited bizarre email from BPSO
in a panic

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