I posted this on another group as well so some may see it again sorry. Well I haven't been on here in so long and just needed to vent. My husband came home in the month of September and we all thought it was going good then one day he said we need to finish the divorce...we need to get this over with (divorce). He is now back living in his car. See my husband is Bipolar and is not on his meds. We have been together for 24 years, February would have been 25 and married for 16 with 5 kids and 6 grandkids. I found out that he has been chatting with a old classmate and also got a new metro cellphone that only she calls and text with. The husband had filed for divorce back in April of 2010 but never had me served, so on wednesday I went and did my filing and had our audlt daughter serve him. I am so lost and torn. I know that I can't fix a person or make a person love me but it sure hurts like hell. I just wish I could stop loving him. I pray that God will take this hurt away because I am so lonely and hurt. I never in my wilds dreams thought I would be this weak that I just can't walk away. All I do is cry and when I am around my kids I have to pretent when all I want to do is sleep. I know that no one can help me get through this except for God and that is who will get me through this. Sorry for venting and showing my oh so weak self. |
