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Shanydan Posts: 26
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Hey Laura, I just wanted to address the whole "forgetting" aspect. To be honest, you will probably never "forget." Such is the nature of our brains. Especially in my case, where I have PTSD, I don't just remember the incidents, I RELIVE them! Fun, to be sure. But I think it is more about learning to deal with them. You seem to be upset about the fact that you aren't healing as quickly as you think you should. Well, although this happened in Jan/Feb, YOU didn't find out about it until June, just three months ago. Rome wasn't built in a day, as they say, so this will take SERIOUS time. I am 18 months out from my manic affairs and I am still in Hell sometimes over them. Cut yourself some slack. And it sounds like he is trying to sympathize with you. Let him. Whether he intended to hurt you or not is irrelevant, he did. Just as I destroyed my husband. I didn't do it intentionally, but I DID do it. He obviously loves you, or he wouldn't be trying. Just give yourself some time, and don't try so hard to forget (I have begged God to remove the images from my brain as well) just try to come to terms with it. When the devil reminds you of the things he said and did, combat that by thinking of all his OTHER bizarre behavior during that time. I do this when I start thinking it wasn't mania, it was all me. I start thinking about the other CRAZY things I did while all this was going on and it helps me realize that I was NOT in my right mind, I WAS ill, and I CAN get through this. Shan |
