Hi everyone, It's been 3 years since my last post and just wanted to give you an update on my journey. My Bi-polar husband of 17 years left me 3 and a half years ago during a manic phase. He admitted to infidelity and drug addiction. At the time I was devastated completely broken open. After 2 weeks away from home he decided he wanted to come back, promised me he would "change" and we tried to reconcile. After only a few months I realised that it was time for me to be strong and let go of the relationship,forgive him and move on with my life. In the past 3 years I have cried buckets and buckets of tears. I have cried for all the abuse I blocked and all of the hopes of healing "us" and living happily ever after. I cried for my children,for the pain they endured and continue to deal with. When the crying stopped I started to see all the lessons and beautiful gifts this man has given me. I believe we enter relationships and stay with that person until we have learnt all the lessons we need to learn. I now live with my 2 beautiful teenagers. I have beautiful friends and a wonderful life. I can sincerely say I am finally happy and free at last. For the very first time since I was about 9 I finally feel complete. Life is beautiful. |
