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02/02/2012 01:42 PM
amalzingsong
 
Posts: 40
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Hello, everyone!

My last post was about a month ago and since then there has been some big changes in my life. I have not spoken to my mother on the phone in over a month and I have only had small (1 minute minimum about twice in the span of no contact) conversations with her over facebook. My life seems so much more peaceful without her in my life and that may sound mean, but it's true. I realized the my life was being taken down with her and it's like either staying on the Titanic while it sinks and dying or fight for a chance.

I hope that one day things may be less awkward between her and I but it's nice not having someone tell me how much of a mistake I was in their life every day.

Thank you for all the support that you have given me over the past year and it's helped me to see what is the right thing to do for myself and my sanity.

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02/02/2012 01:44 PM  Top
sallyo
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I'm so happy to hear things are looking up for you! Keep up the good work!
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02/02/2012 08:58 PM  Top
marriedtoit
marriedtoit
 
Posts: 9120
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Amalzing, this is indeed a happy ending story! Thank you for sharing with us. When our loved ones refuse to take responsibility for their mental illness, sometimes the best thing we can do is to protect ourselves from the havoc they caused in our lives. And your mother created massive, upsetting, crazymaking, distressing havoc.

I hope your peace continues and that your life continues to get better and better.

All of my advice is based on experience and reading. I am not a medical doctor, and have never even played one on TV.

02/03/2012 06:16 AM  Top
yen
Posts: 20
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That's fantastic. Thank you for the update.

02/09/2012 07:35 AM  Top
invisiblenyc
invisiblenyc
 
Posts: 395
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Amalzing: I was wondering how you have been doing. I thought of you this morning because I was thinking about the situation with my mother. I am glad to hear that you have a new sense of peace without her in your life. It's hard to cut ties with people we love but sometimes it's for the best. Be well.
"It is important that we remove toxic people from our lives even it is painful for us to do so. If we do not do so then the long-term negative impact of their presence in our lives is often worse than the short-term pain of cutting them out of our lives." - me

"He or she had these problems before you, while he or she was with you, and left untreated will have the problems after you are long gone." - Circles2007

""virtuous personality traits, such as loyalty, empathy and being non-judgemental towards others, can unintentionally act as as emotional "gate way drugs" to becoming co-dependent." - me

"We all have a little of something in us I think. The question is does it prevent you from functioning and leading a productive stable life...if the answer is yes...then your little something is actually a big something that needs to be addressed." - kalissalea

"It's a process, and some days will be easier than others. I can't be with someone who blames me for their behavior. It's too emotionally draining, and prevents us from having the close relationship I deeply want.' - kalissalea

07/29/2012 11:04 AM  Top
Moonshine
Posts: 19
New Member

Why did you cut contact with your mother? I was told by my daughter's doctor that the support of loved ones is very important.

Previous discussions I participated in:
Help Me!! Help Me!!
I believe my daughter is bipolar

07/29/2012 12:12 PM  Top
amalzingsong
 
Posts: 40
Member

I cut contact because she physically abused me as well as verbally abused and that's not an excuse for being bi-polar. She has also threatened me many times as well as my boyfriend, and grandparents. She also pulled a knife on someone. I tried for a very long time by being supportive and ignoring it, but it's time to take care of myself. If she doesn't want to get better then why keep being abused? She is responsible for herself and shouldn't take things out on others. Especially when it's abusive behavior.

07/29/2012 01:06 PM  Top
Moonshine
Posts: 19
New Member

Oh, you poor thing. That is scary. I hope that by you doing this (cutting yourself out of her life), that she realizes she needs help and needs to change.

I wonder if I cut my bipolar daughter out of my life if things would have changed? She too, always blamed me for her horrible life and accused me of controlling her. She also physically attacked me several times.

I cannot tell you how often she called yelling at me to "fix things," because they are my fault (husband issues, boyfriend issues, job problems, failing school, etc.).

Does your Mom try contacting you? Does she bother you still?


Previous discussions I participated in:
Help Me!! Help Me!!
I believe my daughter is bipolar

07/29/2012 02:01 PM  Top
amalzingsong
 
Posts: 40
Member

She tries to contact me all the time. Unfortunately nothing has changed. She had a flip out this week and told my family that I can go "f***" myself. It's just that things will never change and do I really want to subject myself to that forever? What happens when I try to have a family of my own and she scares them or threatens them?

07/29/2012 02:50 PM  Top
Moonshine
Posts: 19
New Member

I agree. In my case, it's the opposite. I admire that you put your foot down with her. I wonder if it will work. Yeah, my daughter has told everyone that I can also, "go F*** myself." Really painful coming from a daughter, but, hey, it must be painful coming from a Mom.

I cannot imagine that. You do need to think of yourself. It is just confusing and scary for me. I cannot imagine cutting my daughter out of my life. I am sure it took a lot of thought and must have been a very hard decision for you. Obviously though, it is for the best.

You have made me look at things a different way. Thank you, amalzingsong!


Previous discussions I participated in:
Help Me!! Help Me!!
I believe my daughter is bipolar
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