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Iggus Posts: 145
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It can be so hard to forgive. You know they're sick,and to some extent they know they're sick. Things were fine just a few months ago, then suddenly you're out of a job and missing some of your 401k because they convinced you the car needed working on. You thought you were head over heels with each other, then the episode started and you are not only less than a worm- they have no sexual interest in you at all but will sleep with other people for the excitement of it. You can spend years with them- going through deaths in the family,job losses,Christmases, birthdays- and they will say you "over romanticized" the relationship. You can meet with them against your better judgement,because you still melt at the sight of them and want today to be that day-but you're just a friend to them,and they think they can blurt out anything that's on their mind even though it would cut you like glass. They call you the "crazy" one, saying that "you" need counseling so that "you" can detach and move on (even though they contacted you to meet you). You can not text them at all for fear of getting your heart ripped out,and they'll text you out of the blue asking you if you're ok. You want to tell them the truth,but you know what they're up to right now and it won't make a difference. They mention that they want to get on meds,but talk is cheap and they likely forgot what they said by now-if you bring it up you're the Nazi because you talked about their mental health. Mania is supposed to end eventually,but you're up nights wondering what the signs are that mania is ending. You know they're sick and not seeking help. You know the environment they're living in is a bad one and only fuels their behavior one way or the other. You know,there's nothing you can do about it. Sigh,...It can be so hard to forgive. Post edited by: Iggus, at: 08/13/2011 05:38 AM "Day by day, kicking all the way,I'm not caving in. Let another round begin,live to win!"- Paul Stanley
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