I read your diary entries and nobody should put up with the lying, and the controlling. You need to decide what you want in life. You can't control him. If he wants to be an untreated bipolar, and to treat you the way he does, that is his choice. Nothing you can do about it. But, you can do something about yourself. I know it's not easy, only you can decide when you've had enough.

Either way, I'm sorry you can't come here for support or understanding. Well, I suppose you could, if you decided to.

Take care