Ladybug, so sorry to hear that. Many people with cancer survive it now. But I hear the treatments can be very unpleasant to say the least. You have come to acceptance yet and that is why your emotions are all over the place. Give it time, the same thing happened to me when my son died. Acceptance can come after the anger, etc. But sometimes things don't happen in sequence. I worry about telling people off too. We are afraid that people won't help us if we are perceived as being rude to them. We are taught to be polite. So what you are going through is perfectly understandable and I am sure normal. Be gentle with yourself. You obviously are suffering greatly. Docs aren't God and they don't always have tests that are conclusive and for somethings they don't have any tests at all. So they are limited and often wrong. I have a friend in another group who was diagnosed with ALS (aka lou ghering disease). He cried just thinking about it. He was told that 9 out of 10 neurologist would have given him that wrong diagnosis. Just making a point about how wrong they can be. My main leadership role is to listen, encourage, and keep the peace....It isn't to give medical or legal advice...Please note...I am not a Doctor...nor an expert...I am here for the same reason all of you are...to receive and give encouragement.
My religion is kindness - The Dalai Lama
For small creatures such as we the vastness is bearable only through love. Carl Sagan |
