Binge Eating Disorder Online Support Group

I have lost and gained the same twenty pounds. I'm over it. Over putting away the plus size clothes, only to pull them back out again after something stressful. I promise myself that a binge will only last today, but it rolls into tomorrow, the next day, the next, into a week. Then two weeks. Sigh.

Today started off with the greatest of intentions. Then 9:30 came and it all went to heck thanks to anxiety related to a doctor's appointment. I didn't like hearing I have to go for an ultrasound, so I binged. Somewhere in the middle of eating the second stale snack pack of pretzels I begged off a coworker, I told myself I can't keep doing this.

Do I even really enjoy what I eat? Half the time I don't think I even tasted the food! I know it actually hurts my teeth (I have a bridge that hurts with chewing certain foods) I feel so much better when not binging... so why do I do it?

It doesn't help that I'm married to a binger too. Its also the hardest time of year to "be good" I want to indulge (or more accurately, overindulge) in the cookies and candies of the holidays.

Sigh. Hopefully I have found a community of people who understand and relate. Coworkers certainly don't, and family members either hit me over the head emotionally or are just as guilty as I am.

I have been a binge eater literally as far back as I can remember. Sneaking into the kitchen in the middle of the night, even as a young child was a regular activity. At that age I thought if no one saw me eat it they wouldn't notice it was gone. My weight has gone up and down many times, I used to joke with my sister that I was skinny every other year. I have cut down a lot lately for a few reasons, mainly the purging that began a few years ago to lose weight for the military. When I made the decision to work on the purging, I knew I had no choice but to take the binging along with it. If I dont feel too full, I wont purge, period. It's when I feel really full that I feel fat (although if I say that to my therapist she reminds me fat is not a feeling every time). It's not like one day I just decided, I'm not going to binge anymore and was fine. It's a daily, meal to meal struggle, but I'm doing it, and you can too!

excuses: our ability to find rationals. to find exceptions. to make deals with ourselves. to find ways of giving ourselves permission NOW with the promise of starting tomorrow. excuses are our downfall. watch out for them!!

if nothing else may we at least learn to be honest with ourselves!

Hi I just joined too. I too have a hard time with this time of the year. I enjoy eating good food but tend to go over my limit. It is like when food hits my mouth my emotions kick in and eat with me. Some people just don't understand that it is not that we want to over eat we eat away our unsolved emotions. I like this sight, it is nice to chat with people who understand.

bonnie37

Hi Welcome ladies. I too am a binge eater for long time but worse in past few years with more stress on my plate. Yeah, the night time eater is very familiar to me. When I'm at my worst I feel totally out of control and it sucks to eat so much you feel sick and bloated. I've been really trying lately and haven't been as bad. I hope I can make it through Thanksgiving. That will be a challenge all the food I will see, smell and have in my fridge calling my name in the middle of the night. Yikes!!! Rachele

Hang in there friend

Hope today goes better for you!

you are beautiful, we must remember that!