jtarutis
Posts: 2
New Member
Send a PM
Give a Hug
|
I lost my beautiful daughter suddenly and without warning April 1st. She was watching a movie with her father and I - she had cleaned her room and done laundry and baked brownies, then suddenly her brother was screaming upstairs that she had hung herself in her downstairs bedroom. We were upstairs, 30 feet away, so minutes from having sat right next to her on the couch. After talking with many friends and counselors and clergy, we believe it was a horrible accident from playing some "belt game" for some kind of rush - we don't believe it was intentional-she was beutiful, popular, happy,loving, over 300 people showed up for her memorial all saying how happy and fun she was - what a great friend. We did CPR and the Doctors got her heart to beat but two days later we turned off all the machines knowing her brain was no longer working and her little heart was working so hard with all the medications they were pumping into her. I held her when she came into the world and I held her as she left it - and it is just so very wrong that she is no longer here - so wrong that the world keeps on moving when my heart has stopped. She was my baby, and the last of my children to still need me as a mommy and my shopping buddy and best friend and confidante and I cant let go. I feel like I have stepped outside of my own life into somebody elses - I dont know how to do this |
Bereavement Support Forums
