Snoopy30
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MAy 15th was the 31st Anniversary of my mother's death. Sometimes I can't believe so much time has past. All the milesstones in my life have been without her. My first boyfriend, high school graduation, college graduation, marriage, children. the list goes on and on. Sometimes it feels like I never had her in my life so much time has past. But then I know I wouldn't be who i am today without the short time I did have with her. For so many years I have been angry that she was taken from me when I needed her most. At times I think the anger is gone and then there are times like now that I know it is still there. How do I get rid of it! I don't want to be angry but I can't help it.It was only 3 years after she passed that my father did too. So all those milestones have been without out him to. how fair is that? I know life isn't suppose to be fair and we don't always get to know "why" but sometimes I just get so frustrated I can't stand it. I'm not sure what i'm asking for from you my friends in writing this. i think I just needed to vent to people who know how I feel. It's 3:30 in the morning and I can't sleep. I appreciate all of you here. without you I never would have been able to face some of the feelings I have buried away for so long. thank you all for being there |
I still get that way on their anniversary ask myself why it's not fair .It's good that your letting out all that emotions I use to hold it and just try to ignore it .It just gets worse .I think and I know everyone is differnt but, anniversaries are hard no matter how long they have been gone ..My thoughts and prayers are with you .many big sunshine hugs 
