Benzodiazepine Withdrawal Support Group

i've had all kinds of probs with meds.

after i was taken off the klonopin while in a hospital,and came home with terrible reactions of not being able to breathe, major tremors and anxiety and agitation,etc etc. i came home and discovered the asthton method for going off klonopin in a easier way with valium. well my family doc agreed to give me 20 mg (which according to the a.m. is equal to 1 mg klonopin which didnt even include the amount of xanax i had been on...that would have been an additional 40 mg of xanax) of it and to start reducing. well, at first it has helped me breathe and kept me from having such horrible tremors...but it really does not help me relax at all. well, it numbs my brain even more than before. i cannot concentrate, have lost complete interest in anything at all, which was already bad because i was on the klonopin for so long.....but now i cant even follow a tv show.....and i am now on 13 mg.....5mg in am 8 in pm....now i am dealing with depression and sometimes i still wake up with soooo much anxiety.....it causes major exciteablity.....i looked up the paradoxial side effects and i have had them all. i really dont know what to do.

i was taken off of seroquel and lamictal cold turkey in march and have gone down hill since then. i became void . then the anxiety and heart problems started...even had a heart cath in july. started having pain my chest and everything which i still do. i never had these problems before i was taken off the lamictal and seroquel but it was causing me to stay so wound up and i ruminated on things bad.

anyway, i dont really know what else to say....just would like to know what other people do.....i know i cannot tolerate this valium. i had built up a tolerence to the klonopin but i was thinking about going back on 1 mg and slowly coming off.....before i went in the hospital i just could come down and relax to go to sleep at night and my heart always raced. what was so weird was when i went in to the hospital my heart racing went away...my chest hurt but no more heart racing. i guess it was because i knew i was getting help.

i am rambling.....but i need something else to help me with this valium because it doesnt relax me...just helps me breathe and be able to drive.

i am and have been , having a difficult time taking care of myself because i live alone and i do not have any support.

oh, my psych doc just gave me latuda, and antipsychotic to try but i am so afraid to. especially with going thru w/d's. something did happen back in september...dont know what it could have been....i just totally lost all touch with reality. i would sleep 2 hrs and wake up so manic and crazy - finally after a few days in the hospital i came down out of the fog....i would dissociate and go into another world at times.

i used to feel so much compasion for people but now i have no feelings, except the depression. dont know what the deal is. that hit me in august. it had gotten so bad in sept that i had to write down what i was feeling in order to even remember anything or talk to someone in person or on the phone.

anyway......i just dont know what to do about the valium....

i just wonder who will read this long long post and make sense out of it and respond......my brain doesnt function well at all so excuse the rambling. it really sucks because i need distractions and have none here....and not a soul to do anything with.......i cant believe it's thanksgiving....i just cant quite come down to reality....and christmas is so depressing for me. i get soooo impulsive and agressive and no depressed(dealt with depression all my life and been suicidal on and off since july of last year due to several things) ......right now i dont know how long i will live. i am very distraught and cannot handle this at all.......even told my family and they dont even care. oh, i have bipolar, bpd, and ptsd. ...no meds other than valium and 10 mg propranol

If you where only taking 1mg of k and 1mg of xanax after 7 years you were doing great !

I am on xanax was on 8 mg after 2 years and was taken off too fast ended up in the icu after that I realized doctors read a book and think they understand and they do NOT

Everyone is different every body is different

You need to think about going back on your meds and doing a dry cut taper at your own speed or I can make a slow taper chart for you

Now don't get it wrong no matter what your going to feel sick,tried,ect but it won't kill you

Post edited by: LostInCyberspace12, at: 11/25/2011 05:26 PM

Sadly I think I've perfected a way tooooo stay on them forever at least for my body

Good luck!

that is interesting what you wrote. I think perhaps if more ppl did this with benzos in the beginning, they could perhaps hold off any tolerance issues and stay on the drugs and not have to keep upping the dose until no amount works. I am glad that works for you Lee. I am all for whatever works for you, do it.

Cressie>>>>>>

26 years is a longtime on benzos. It must have been pretty horrendous in the beginning to have a doctor just snatch you off that much klonopin. I am amazed you did not have seizures. How long have you been off now Cressie and how do you feel?

Post edited by: LostInCyberspace12, at: 12/02/2011 08:21 AM

I did have the seizures, but that is why I took the drug to begin with. They got worse for a couple weeks after I was taken off suddenly, I lost my mind with alot of other mind bending sensations, dreams, lack of sleep, etc.; it's been six weeks and I'm starting with some of same things I had in week one. I hope it's not a re-run. I was suppose to start work in two weeks. ha! I was trying to tell Missy that if she has gotten as far as she has on a weaning scheduling she should hang in there - there is light. I'm testament to what can happen and I know I'm not the worse case scenario.