Benzodiazepine Withdrawal Support Group

Im pretty sure this withdrawal is giving me a hell of a lot of depression. I mean I've had depression since my early teens/pre teens but it was all situational and I was in a bad environment. It's still been on an off but now things are a bit better. But the last few weeks I cannot stop crying and feeling empty and hopeless. My boyfriend doesn't know what to do so he just doesn't come around me. We live together and this is really hard. I know some of it is depression because I feel sad about some things in my relationship but I think the most is from the withdrawal.

I feel like caving back in and going to a doctor to get medicine. I feel like that would be a terrible thing because I've done so much to clean out my body and it will just throw so much junk back in it.

I get sad to the point where I just want to move back home and not be with my boyfriend which is stupid because I love him and wouldn't do that but when I get into those episodes I'm completely different.

I just want to feel better! I'm fustrated and I'm constantly up and down.

I will be calling a new therapist today to try to get an appointment. I hope I still have insurance though.

I'm so sorry Hun, withdrawl isn't fun and the depression that can come with it is over whelming I remember thinkin if I just left my husband and started all over I would be fine lol silly thinking back I was tryin to run away from myself and somehow had talked myself into thinking a big change would fix it which of course it dint

My boyfriend always says he doesn't know what to do to help me but he wants to but everytime I tell him something that would make me feel a little bit better he never wants to. I don't know how to get any support from him.

This question I cant answer Im sorry I learned long ago that my problems where just that MY problems and though someone may love me it isnt there JOB to make me feel better even if I want them to do that.....(not saying this is you just me and there for I cant answer this you see)

What is it that you need support with perhaps because I have learned that my problems are mine to cope with I can help you in some way to learn how to help yourself and not need something from someone else

PS- I didnt learn that in withdrawal lol ...I learned that when I was learning to deal and cope with my panic and agro....I learned that my "safe person" the person that made the panic "go away" and it ok to be in a "place" as long as they were there was nothing more that MY mind wanting someone to handle my emotions like i could unload everything on them and be ok for a few and I finally understood that not only is that WRONG for me personally to do but it will end up running them off cause someone can only take so much before they leave or go crazy with you

We actually talked about everything that's been going on and it helped a lot. I've been feeling better the past couple days. My boyfriend actually puts sticker on the calender for my good days which I think is good because then it's something I can look at and see I was able to handle yesterday so I can handle today. Even though it's a kid thing I like it. I guess a big thing was when I get anxious I get really irritated and just plain mean and so he doesn't know how to handle it and such. The good thing is he said he wasn't ever worried because he knows everything is going to get better.

thats a wonderful idea and nothing is "childish" if it helps TRUST ME lol.....glad you two talked that can help bond and stop any ill feelings as well sometimes!

DanikaM said>>>>>My boyfriend always says he doesn't know what to do to help me but he wants to but everytime I tell him something that would make me feel a little bit better he never wants to. I don't know how to get any support from him.Hang in there DanikaM. You said everytime you tell your bf something that might help you, he never wants to do it. Can you give a specific example of something you might say/have said already that could have helped you but your boyfriend refused.

Post edited by: LostInCyberspace12, at: 07/09/2011 06:20 AM

leandrat said>>>>>>I'm so sorry Hun, withdrawl isn't fun and the depression that can come with it is over whelming I remember thinkin if I just left my husband and started all over I would be fine lol silly thinking back I was tryin to run away from myself and somehow had talked myself into thinking a big change would fix it which of course it dintI have thought about trying to run away also from my current life Lee thinking it might fix things. I think we all have those thoughts>>>>>that somehow if we could just start over, we could leave all our old problems and pain behind but it does not work like that unfortunately. I think life is a struggle for all human beings from cradle to grave. Most ppl have more ups than downs and thus life is mostly enjoyable and you can deal with the downs when they occur. But when your life starts having mostly downs with very little uptime, life can become really miserable and you start looking for ways to escape.

Well sometimes when I'm feeling horrible I don't want to be stuck in the same place I'm feeling bad. So I sometimes ask if we can go somewhere like a quick 5 minute drive or to a park or anything. He usually always says "there's no where to go" or "i don't feel like driving" Sometimes I ask if he can just sit next to me or lay down next to me for just a little while because that helps me feel better and he would say "i can't just sit/lay here because I need to be doing stuff or else I'll feel like I'm wasting time" I'm just sick of being asked what will help and when I say something he doesn't want to. I understand some of the reasons why he doesn't want to but then again he shouldn't ask if he knows what my answer will be. Sometimes I'll ask him to exercise with me and all of a sudden his wrist will start hurting or whatever. A lot of things besides making me feel better he will ask me my opionon and then the way he answers makes me feel like I'm wrong.

I could just be being over-dramatic with this whole thing but it annoys me and I'm not the type of person to say something about it because I try to avoid all conflict/negetivity as much as possible with our relationship.

What you said sounds perfectly reasonable to me. I mean these are small things that would really help you. Does he really love and care for you, do you think? Life is all about give and take. You can't always take and not give back a little. If you do, the ppl who are the closest to you who truly love you will eventually start to pull away b/c they can't get some of their basic needs fulfilled. How long have you guys been together? Are there kids involved or just the two of you?

Post edited by: LostInCyberspace12, at: 07/13/2011 09:28 PM