Paulg
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I'm new here and wanted to introduce myself. all my life until about 5-7 years ago i always wondered why if i liked certain foods i never changed,or if i got used to certain things and if it changed why it bothered me,such as a break up in a relationship.finally a few years ago in the newspaper there was an article on autism,and mostly aspergers,and it showed some of the symptoms and i had a good share of them, like talking constantly about comedy,which i love. anyway,my story in this post is more about my dad however. since i was a kid,almost everytime if i did something wrong,he would yell at me and with my autism it would bug me. i could never even today speak to him because he always thinks he's right. my 3 older bothers and younger sister said he was the same with them and we believe he is an a** and only cares about himself. about a year ago was the icing on the cake. my grandmother,mother,father,and myself were in the kitchen and there were too many people in there so i got out of there to give them room and my dad grabs me by the arm and pulls me out even though i was walking away,so as i was walking at the same time as him pulling my arm,the force cause my arm to pull away from his hand,and he assumed i did it on purpose and his hit me really hard on the back. I had spinal fusion when i was 13 but i was almost 14 in 3 months,so i gotta ve careful on my back. anyway as he walked away he turned around as i wasd throwing up my arms and my middle finger must have been up without me realizing it so he thought i was flipping him off so he forced me in the next room and told me if i ever did that again he was gonna punch me in the face. I have never forgiven dad since. he treats me like a child and i tried talking to him once several years ago and all he did was deny he did anything. after that scenario i explained,i didn't speak to him for almost 2 weeks. finally when he was in the car he proceeded to attempt an apology,but it came out like this "i apologize for hitting you "that hard"". that is not an apology. it's as if to say i meant to hit you but not quite that hard. I will be 39 in april and have no way of getting out of this house as i cannot drive due to my autism. i can walk though. I have no idea how to fix this situation and i hope you can help. Thanks. |
