Hi, Im New

Do you know why your afraid to leave? Is there something that triggers your attacks?

I have had them for many years!! I know that men getting to close to me or if they wear certain after-shave will send me into a panic/anxiety attack.

I am so sorry that we are meeting here......... It means that we suffer with this debilitating condition. I'm glad that you are reaching for help and I hope that we can be of some help to you!

Feel free to ask me anything and if you need help or have troubles, PM me anytime!!!Your Friend, Chris

No, I don't take any medications for anxiety! I probably should!!! I just take so many for my medical conditions that I don't feel like adding more. I have been given prescriptions for them but don't get them filled. I am going to be going back to conseling soon for this and depression. I have got alot going on and have troubles dealing with stress!!!

I hate to ask, but were you abused? It sounded like it in your last post. I really hope not and am so sorry if you were. There are also groups for sexual and emotional abuse here that I belong to. There are alot of caring people in them!!!

No, I'm not trying to get you to leave this group but others may be helpful along with this one!!! It is helpful to get to the root of the problem and work from there!

Have you tried any breathing exercises or mindfulness things at all? I learned those things in therapy. They have helped some!

I am glad your here and will do whatever I can to help you feel better!!!!Take care, chris

ps.....Keep posting!!!!!

Abuse is very difficult to deal with. We spend most of our time stuffing or ignoring those memories. To drag them out and share with others is difficult. I do suggest that if you decide to let it out, get a health professional to talk to, not just the people here. They are better able to monitor you and your feelings.

I had to deal with mine. I was having panic attacks, flash backs and thought I was going crazy! I was!! It happened many years after the abuse and I had no clue what was going on. I just knew that I was loosing it! I have had alot of therapy and found a survivor group close to my home. They saved my life. Along with my recovery groups. I'm in AA and GA.

I hope that you can find someone to hlp you deal with all of this. I will give you back your life! It takes alot of time but is well worth it. There is nothing like having peace and serenity in your life. even if it isn't all the time, some is better than none.

Take care and keep us posted on how you are doing!

((( Hugs ))) Your Friend, Chris

Yes I am okay with talking about my abuse and yes it was hard to deal with. I had a hard time talking about it and admitting my brother was one of the abusers. I just knew that I had to deal with it. I started having flash-backs and nightmares. I was in a constant state of anxiety and panic. I couldn't think straight and my life was spinning out of control. I was in the middle of my addictions and losing my mind. When I went to tratment for gambling, they helped me bring out some of it. i continue in therapy after that. I found the group close to my home and joined it. I want to help others that have been in that situation and help others stay out of it.

None of them got punished. I was abused by several different people and different times in my life. I was the one that felt punished for them hurting me. I wasn't able to talk to my friends, had to stay inside at school, I had to have lunch in the principals office for one year, and couldn't have a locker. I was in 4th grade then. He was the only one that had any consequences for his actions. He got probation for awhile but was free to do whatever he wanted.

Why are you afraid of your father finding out? The counselor can't say anything unless you are under age 18. There are laws for confidentiality. Your fears are not stupid. I'm glad that your going to get counseling. It will be tough at first but hang in there and it will get better.

Take care and Pm me anytime!!! Your friend, Chris

Thanks for sharing you abuse with me. I am glad that the counselling helped for you. I am a little upset that your abusers were never punished and what's probation? That's nothing for taking someone's innocence. Sorry, ignore me. I am having such a bad day today and I shouldn't be taking it out on you. I am so sorry that you had a hard time growing up. When you listen or read someone elses story it certainly puts what you've been through into perspective. I was only abused by my father in the family. That was bad enough. My mother didn't believe me and that still hurts because we don't talk now. She is missing out on her grandchildren.

I think I'm still afraid because when I saw counsellors when I was younger, my father demanded to know what I had spoken about and the counsellor told him. I was fuming. I never went back after that. That's just stuck in my mind and I feel like my dad is spying on me with whatever I do. I am sure that will pass with the more counselling that I have.

I will certainly keep you posted with how I'm getting on, just having a really bad day today.

Hugs

Gemma

I understand how you feel about your mother. I never really told them (my parents) about the abuse when I was younger. I know that my mom knew about some of it and never did anything. I tried to talk to her about it when I was out of the house but she didn't listen!! It hurts alot.

I have alot of panicanxiety attacks when I'm going to see her. She can lay on the guilt pretty heavily. It was hard to set boundries with her but I finially did it!

I'm here if you need to talk, Chris