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AmyBerry Posts: 194
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Hello everyone! My name is Amy, I am almost 32 years old, and have been suffering from anxiety for most of my life. You think I'd be used to it, but I'm not, nor will I ever be, My biggest triggers are the thought of losing my children, and being in a car. When I think of losing my children, I get a panic attack. When I'm in a car, I'm afraid of getting into an accident, so that sparks a panic attack. This is when I am a passenger. I believe it's because I not in control of these triggers and I hate that. I need to be in control. I constantly worry about everything. Every little thing. Things that most people would laugh at because it's ridiculous. I panic when I hear a plane that is loud because I'm afraid it's going to crash into us. I'm afraid of a nearby nuclear power plant exploding. I'm afraid of just about everything and it's causing me to fear life instead of enjoy it. That's me in a nutshell! It's nice to be in a place where I am not alone. All the best,
Amy
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dreamsofinsomnia Posts: 1719
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I know all about these feelings. I sometimes feel like a control freak because of my problems. Have you tried exposure therapy? we are all hear for you and welcome Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
Maybe someday you'll look up,
And, barely conscious, you'll say to no one:
"Isn't something missing?"
You won't cry for my absence, I know -
You forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant...?
Am I so insignificant...?
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?
Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?
Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
I know what you do to yourself,
I breathe deep and cry out:
"Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?"
Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?
And if I bleed, I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you
And wake without you there,
Isn't something missing?
Isn't something...
Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?
contact me on yahoo messenger under jennyleuchtman |
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Chanda Posts: 2137
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Hi Amy, Im 31 and had this all my life too and think the same things! I have a lot of those same fears and thoughts. Hope to get to know ya better! Hang in there! And if you ever wanna talk, im here!  I am not a Doctor, just a person who experiences panic and anxiety and Im here to try to help people and also learn from them also. ;)
Check out my blog about panic and anxiety, I try to write in it daily, This site has helped me. And the Programs on the top, sides, and bottom! NO MORE ANXIETY & PANIC!!
http://paniccure123.blogspot.com
If you ever need me & im not on here, try my yahoo IM- Babygirlluv1978, my myspace is or also www.myspace.com/BabyGirlLuv1978 and facebook under Chanda Miller, I play pogo alot at pogo.com, my name is cdm62108
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*Cast all you anxiety on (God), because he cares for you. I Peter 5:7
*I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.- Phil 4:13
*So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.- Isaiah 41:10
*For I the Lord thy God will hold thy right hand, saying unto thee, Fear not; I will help thee. - Isaiah 41:13
*"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight." -Proverbs 3:5-6
*Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.- Psalm 23:4
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AmyBerry Posts: 194
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I've never even heard of exposure therapy. What is it? And thanks for the welcome.  All the best,
Amy |
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AmyBerry Posts: 194
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I hate having to live in fear! I just want to enjoy life and the time I have to live it. All the best,
Amy |
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dreamsofinsomnia Posts: 1719
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usually a councelor takes a list of things you fear you avoid all of them but the one you are working for example if a person is scared of driving the councelor may have you at first close your eyes and picture your driving then when you confortable with that they may then have you sit in a unmoving care till your confortable then the next step would be to drive a short distance on a not to traveled road- may do this several different sessions then the next step is to drive further the one after that is to drive on a busy street you get the idea by slowly exposing you to your fear it should make you able to cope with it after you have one fear beat then you work on another it is a long process and there are steps backwards but it is possible just an idea i know lots of people it worked on especially for driving, heigths and closed spaces like elevators Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
Maybe someday you'll look up,
And, barely conscious, you'll say to no one:
"Isn't something missing?"
You won't cry for my absence, I know -
You forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant...?
Am I so insignificant...?
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?
Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?
Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
I know what you do to yourself,
I breathe deep and cry out:
"Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?"
Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?
And if I bleed, I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you
And wake without you there,
Isn't something missing?
Isn't something...
Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?
contact me on yahoo messenger under jennyleuchtman |
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Chanda Posts: 2137
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I hear ya girl, that's exacly how i feel! I am not a Doctor, just a person who experiences panic and anxiety and Im here to try to help people and also learn from them also. ;)
Check out my blog about panic and anxiety, I try to write in it daily, This site has helped me. And the Programs on the top, sides, and bottom! NO MORE ANXIETY & PANIC!!
http://paniccure123.blogspot.com
If you ever need me & im not on here, try my yahoo IM- Babygirlluv1978, my myspace is or also www.myspace.com/BabyGirlLuv1978 and facebook under Chanda Miller, I play pogo alot at pogo.com, my name is cdm62108
**************************************************
**** I HAVE PICTURES, I LOVE PICS.!!!****
**************************************************
*Cast all you anxiety on (God), because he cares for you. I Peter 5:7
*I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.- Phil 4:13
*So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.- Isaiah 41:10
*For I the Lord thy God will hold thy right hand, saying unto thee, Fear not; I will help thee. - Isaiah 41:13
*"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight." -Proverbs 3:5-6
*Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.- Psalm 23:4
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enoughurting Posts: 98
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I hope you have some relief from your symptoms. I know how you feel. I have been suffering with this for a week and feel as though it has been a lifetime. You are not along in feeling your irrational thoughts. I hope that you get through this. There are many people suffering just as you are and we all understand. Meds:
Xanax .5mg twice a day
Klonopin 1 mg twice a day
At this time Viibryd 20 mgs |
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"When I first came to MDJ, I was in need of peer support in dealing with issues of my childhood abuse. I was moving away from the painful issues and trying to find an uplifting group of people to help me transition to a thriver in my life. I found that here. I also found a group of peers with Fibromyalgia and found the same uplifting experience there. My computer crashed and it was a while before I found my way back, this time with issues related to Parkinson's Disease. I had tried a few other support sites before reminding myself of MDJ. On those, I never got a reply. I finally found my way back here and again found very supportive, caring and inspiring people who made me feel like I was 'back home'. Indeed I am." (ThereseML)
