VampiricAngel
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It runs my life. these are some of the thoughts I have. At night all I can think about what if someone breaks in while I'm sleeping. Did I lock the front door I have to go check so I check the lock...even though I see it's lock I have to touch it and twist it and pull on the knob and touch the upper lock to make sure I run past the darned window that has a sheer curtain that I hate so much because I feel like I'm being watched and go straight to my room. I check my window. I go to bed. I think I hear a noise at the door did I really lock it I go to check again it's still locked did I lock the garage door. Then I think I'm acting Crazy I finally lay down. Then other thoughts run through my head. What if I didn't pack my papers for tomorrow what if It's not perfect maybe I should check it. Omg what if...what if...I always think of the worse case scenario. When people don't come home on time I have to call them to see if their alright I'm always freaking out. Always worried. All the time. About EVERYTHING. Not even the normal way. MY friends are always telling me to relax RELAX HOWWWWWWWWW in this crazy world. Where nething can happen. I know it may not seem that bad but it feels like fear is running my life sometimes and like it's canceling out other successes I've accomplished do other people feel the same? ~“Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength.”
~“Confront the dark parts of yourself, and work to banish them with illumination and forgiveness. Your willingness to wrestle with your demons will cause your angels to sing. Use the pain as fuel, as a reminder of your strength.”
~ August Wilson quotes (American Writer, 1945-2005)
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"I am so happy to be a part of the MDJunction family! Where I used to be alone, I now have friends whom inspire me, comfort me, support me, and do not judge me. My new life began October 17, 2008. I weighed in with severe depression, social anxiety disorder and avoidant personality disorder. I was born with complications but I am fighting for my life and I will survive!!" (apieceofwork)
