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07/12/2012 02:13 AM
kialove
kialove
 
Posts: 19
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I have to stop this shit is fuckin my life up,I have 6kids and a grandson .ive been living my life for everybody else.all I can do is this think about dieing.maybe if I kill .myself the pain will stop..so sad rite .somebody help
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07/12/2012 04:38 AM  Top
damselndistress
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Welcome kialove.

Many of us start out with anxiety that maybe we can live with and like a bad infection it just gets worse and worse to thr point that it bevomes overwhelming and consumes us.

I didn't realize that process myself until about 2 years ago.

It can get better though and I hope that happens for you.

Do you have a doctor that you can go see?

Are you on any medication for your anxiety?

These things might help you to get control of your life again.

2 more days of school-yipee!

07/12/2012 04:59 AM  Top
JodieLB
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Posts: 131
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Kialove you sound very distressed. Can you go see a professional to help manage your anxiety? I know firsthand how anxiety can torture your thoughts and leave you feeling empty. Let me know how I can help. Keep fighting!!

07/12/2012 05:52 AM  Top
2ofme
2ofme
 
Posts: 1346
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I am so sorry you are feeling this was and pray you soon relax. I understand how difficult uncontrolled anxiety can be and have shared those same emotions quite often. As a when I get to feeling this way, it is usually followed by a crash into a deep depression and the mixed episode begins ... swinging between one and the other in a mater of only a few minutes.

I have only the same questions as previously asked.

My thoughts and prayers go out to you. {{{hugs}}}

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redefining "good enough"
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personal goal is to "LIVE HAPPILY & HAPPILY LIVE!"
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07/12/2012 07:00 AM  Top
LostInCyberspace12
LostInCyberspace12
 
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Yeah, I agree with all the others who have responded to you kialove. There is help for these things out there and you don't have to always feel like you are feeling now. Unlike many physical chronic illnesses where you feel really crummy and followed by long periods of remission, many of the psychological disorders, left untreated, just grow worse over time. It is this feeling of not ever feeling well that can take away the desire to go on living because you start to feel hopeless. I mean if you can not get any joy out of living, why bother trying to go on living? We have all probably felt like this kialove but take heart that acute episodes of intense pain does not last forever so you will feel better than you probably do right now. Don't try and fight these feelings with willpower alone. Just let yourself feel what you are feeling and seek out help from someone trained who can help you not feel like this and can help you feel like you would like to feel.

How long have you been feeling like really bad now?

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07/12/2012 09:04 AM  Top
GabsBaxter
 
Posts: 55
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Hey, kialove -

I hope you're able to talk to someone face to face Smile It can be a very helpful experience to have that interaction with someone; it'll probably help to alleviate some of the heaviness on your heart Smile

It can be difficult to feel this way for even a short period of time; piggybacking on LIC's comment, how long have you had anxiety issues? Correct me if I'm wrong, but it sounds like you're depressed, too. I have both as well; it can be pretty scary, true.

It can be hard, too, to reach out to therapists/psychologists/psychiatrists also - especially if you've grown up in a family or culture that thinks it's bunk or bogus. However, those professionals wouldn't exist if they weren't helpful, necessary, or if they weren't medically sound.

Also - sometimes conversing with other family members, you find out that you're not the only one in your family that is suffering from the same issues.

And, you can always talk to us, too

Smile

Best wishes to you...


07/12/2012 10:31 AM  Top
slada
slada
 
Posts: 2414
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I am sure you are loved so don't do it there is kids that need you you have to be strong.

Nothing last forever my friend,after every rain sun come,please talk to us here.....

I been in your position long time ago even worse,but now I realized how Bless I am to get second chance in life.Talk and talk,please just talk,anything you want but please don't keep inside yourself.Are you along at home now?

Try not to be and please have somebody with you.......please......

Can you send one word here so I know you didn't forgot about this forum?

I want to talk with you,let me know when you are here......please

Many kisses and hugs from Slada

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Begin at once to live, and count each separate day as a separate life.
Clouds come floating into my life, no longer to carry rain or usher storm, but to add color to my sunset sky.
It is a common experience that a problem difficult at night is resolved in the morning after the committee of sleep has worked on it.

07/12/2012 11:35 AM  Top
lken
lken
 
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i agree with you kialove, i just want to run away and escape from the predators, that feed on us, we seem to give and give and they take and take, i keep telling myself my time, how do we just break away from the trap of the takers?

07/12/2012 12:35 PM  Top
kialove
kialove
 
Posts: 19
Member

Thank you for takin time out.I really dont no how to stop this ppl have been taking from me all my life.

07/12/2012 12:36 PM  Top
kialove
kialove
 
Posts: 19
Member

Thank you.
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