Anorexia Nervosa Support Group

I also can't stand not knowing what my weight is. I mean, don't get me wrong, I can see how it can definitely be destructive, but right now I think it would be worth having a scale just so I don't go nuts.

Well I guess I've told you my reasoning on the issue. I think scales are a huge trigger and anorexics need to learn to live without them while they are recovering. But that's just my own experience and my personal opinion. So it's an issue best brought up and solved with your therapist. Maybe some other folks will jump in and offer their thoughts on the have or not have a scale issue. (((Hugs)))

My therapist didn't seem to have much of an opinion on scales. She asked why I didn't have one yet and I told her that they're expensive and I'm not sure I want to spend that much money on one. She did say though that maybe a better option would be basing my weight on how my clothes fit.

Well I think she kind of did have an opinion if she mentioned that a better option would be to base your weight on how your clothing fit. This is what I do. It keeps me feeling "safe" (like I am still in the size I want to be in), but also keeps me from obsessing in every hormonal, fluid related bit of weight that pops on and off. A scale really is a big trigger for many with AN.

Yeah, she did kind of have an opinion, but it didn't seem like much of an opinion. I don't like the idea of basing my weight off my clothes because it doesn't give me something concrete like numbers and I'm looking for numbers.

well I mean it's all up to you. But just speaking from experience, if you're worried about becoming clinically anorexic, then it is common sense that you should not be focusing on the numbers of a scale unless it is part of a weight gain program. Your choice and you'll do what works for you.

It's just that it's driving me nuts not having a scale :/

I almost bought a scale and then decided not to. It's still killing me not knowing where I'm at, but you can bet that I'll be hopping onto the scale as soon as I get home next week!

Well I understand the compulsion to do this, that's for sure. I hope it' something you can discuss in your next therapy session. Being able to talk about my obsession with numbers scales with my therapist is something that really helped me. It might be good to get to try to get to the bottom of why you need that number on the scale as an affirmative experience.