She was once a kind, loving woman who never got angry about anything. She was gentle and sweet. Now she's frustrated and confused all the time and it breaks my heart. I don't see her as often as I would like (my parents moved her to an assisted living home closer to them, about two hours away), and when I do it just.. makes me so sad. I feel so guilty for not being able to do more for her. She still has brief moments of clarity, but they are few and far between.

I know you all can probably relate. Alzheimer's is awful, and my mother, sister, and I are terrified it will be our fate as well.

Even if she doesnt know you , you should try to visit. I know it will be hard for you. She will enjoy the visit . My mom often didnt recognize me but enjoyed me reading to her and showing her old photos. It will help you feel better when she passes. You will know you helped her not be as lonely.

As far as being scared to get it goes; there are things to do to help prevent it. Doing puzzles, walking, eating healthy, reading, etc. will help prevent it. I think there is a vitamin that is supposed to help also.

Welcome to this site. Know you are alone with your feelings.

Lori (the group leader)

Welcome to the group! I too worry about Alzheimer's in my future. My aunt died from it and my father has had it for ~6 years or more. My dad has not recognized me in quite a while but occasionally will be lucid and say my name. He cannot relate my name to my face but there is something in his brain that brings my name or my sister's name to the surface. It makes me smile...makes me cry... and makes me wish he was his old charming self. I am just happy that he is blissfully happy in his own world! Welcome and I hope to talk with you!