Heya, Critter!
When I look back at all the rehabs, psych wards, detoxes, and hospitals in my glittering past, I can say honestly that all the help I needed, and more, was available to me.
Where I failed was in making an honest effort to receive help and to USE what was available to me.
Where I failed was in criticizing what was offered to me, without trust or understanding.
Where I failed was in trying to run the show myself, with a half-assed notion that I MYSELF knew better than anyone else what was best for ME.
Where I finally succeeded after 35 years of trying to sober up MY way, was in accepting the help that was offered, surrendering with gratitude to the suggestion that I needed to change, and letting someone else take charge of the parts of my life which I had always screwed up.
It really didn't matter WHO took charge..., just as long as it wasn't ME!!
All you need is there, and it will open up to you as you need it--health, home, job, mental and emotional support, and social resources, friendship, happiness, peace, freedom, and love.
A lot of us don't understand that--don't understand that it's all given freely to us. All we have to do is put aside our prideful attitude.
Are you ready to quit? Do you want to live sober? Are you willing to go to any lengths?
An honest "yes" to those three questions opened the door for me--the door to real freedom. With help, I found that freedom. I now know how to live without booze and drugs. I believe you can do it too.
If I'm lyin' I'm dyin'!
With greatest respect,
Jim
(S.D. 09/13/02)
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